Maybe A Drizzle Of Love [Weather Series 1]

Drizzling 16

Hindi ko malaman kung ilang oras kaming naroon hanggang sa kusa na lang tumigil ang mga luha ko at umayos ang aking pag-hinga.

"Feeling better?"

Tumango lang ako ng kaunti.

"It's already 9. Let's get you something to eat."

Umiling ako saka yumakap lang sa kaniya.

"Ako na lang samahan mo kumain kung ayaw mo."

Tinanggal ko ang mga braso ko sa kaniya. "I'll go home... Just leave me here, malapit lang naman 'yung bahay namin dito."

Nagulat ako ng bigla na lang niya akong buhatin na parang pangkasal. "Bring me down!" napatiling sabi ko.

Hindi niya pinansin ang pagrereklamo ko at naglakad palayo sa playground. I was drain from crying kaya kumapit na lang ako sa batok niya nang mapagd akong umalma.

I touched something cold and I knew already that it was his chained necklace. Parang napapasong napahawak na lang ako sa balikat niya para iiwas ang kamay roon.

We stopped in front of his car and I didn't know how he managed to open the door of the car while carrying me and placed me at the passenger seat. He even fixed my seatbelt before closing the door and turning to the driver's seat.

He drove to a drive thru near the village. I was just staring outside while I heard him order food for himself. Ilang sadali pa ay umalis na kami roon at bumalik sa gilid ng exclusive village. I didn't know how he managed to enter earlier but whatever it was, the same trick sent us inside the village.

I heard him played the music. I appreciated that he played a 1D song but I wasn't really in the mood to sang into the song.

"Saan 'yung bahay n'yo?"

Walang buhay na sinabi ko sa kaniya ng mga dapat niyang daanan. Ilang sandali pa ay huminto na kami sa tapat ng gate namin.

Pinatay niya ang makina at nakiramdam sa akin.

Hindi agad ako lumabas ng sasakyan.

Will I really sleep here? To this house that used to be a home? Memories of my childhood played again on my mind.

If this was some sort of nightmare, can it just end already?

"Tangina... hyindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kay dad pagnakita ko siya."

Nakatulala lang ako sa harap ng kotse at parang lumalabo na ang aking paningin hanggang sa hindi ko na masyadong maaninag ang nasa harap. Nakarinig ako ng pagbukas at pagsara ng pinto. Tapos ay may hangin kong naramdaman sa gilid ko.

"C'mon, Cass. Mas magiging komportable ka sa loob."

I looked at him with tears on the eyes.

"Paano ako magiging komportable dyan kung kada sulok ng bahay nandoon 'yung memory ni dad?"

I felt him wiped the tears and I just hugged him again. Naramdaman kong tinaggal niya ang seatbelt kaya mas nayakap ko siya nang maayos at umiyak ulit sa damit niyang basa pa rin.

"Zyle and sakit," I sniffed. "Si dad 'yung pinakaimportanteng lalaki sa akin pero ba't siya pa 'yung gumawa ng pinakakinaaayawan kong bagay? What does mom did  to deserve that? for him to cheat on her? Zyle sobrang bait ng mommy ko, e. Bakit siya niloko..."

I felt like I cried for another hour before we entered the house, with Zyle still guiding me with his hands on my elbow. Maybe he was thinking I'll just pass out kaya todo alalay siya sa akin.

Dumiretso ako sa kwarto habang nakasunod pa rin si Zyle. I was too consumed I haven't feel hunger anymore and all I wanted to do was sleep, hoping that the next time I woke up, nothing like this really happened.