Maybe A Drizzle Of Love [Weather Series 1]

VIRGA

"Cass why are you crying?" I asked her the moment I picked up her call.

"Don't worry, i-it's just my pregnancy hormones." Nagtangis ang bagang ko dahil sa paghikbi niya.

"Where's Zyle?"

"Lhyre's," she said in between her sobs. I imagined her wiping her tears using the back of her palm.

"Cass..." I shut my eyes tight. Sorry... It's all my fault...

"I already made peace with myself, Rencey. I already accepted that no matter how much Zyle loves me, Arila will always be a part of him. That she will always hold a small part of his heart even though I almost invade it all... Pero bakit masakit pa rin minsan kapag naiisip ko?" She said between her sobs.

I waited for her to calm down. Sniffing every time with sobs.

She laughed that pained me by just hearing her broken voice. "Damn it. Naging sobrang selfish ko naman 'ata."

"Sorry Cass," I finally uttered. "I'm so sorry..."

She laughed at me. Not a bitter one. "Ano ka ba, wala ka namang..." she sniffed again. "...kasalanan..."

Kung alam mo lang...

It's all my fault...

"I just hate it that he's blaming himself for something he had no control... I thought that time he came home, she told him the real reason. But still, I'm glad that he keeps choosing me over and over again. Na kahit nalaman niya na 'yung rason, umuwi pa rin siya sa akin ulit..."

The silence echoed on the line as another wave of tears came from her.

"I can't believe I'm jealous of someone who's gone," she said all of a sudden but there was no trace of tears on her voice. She chuckled and sniffed after. Like she realized she was ridiculous for crying about this matter.

She sighed audibly in defeat. "It's tiring being like this you know? I just hope my husband won't get tired of proving me that he loves me."

Mariin akong napapikit.

"Sorry, Cass. Sorry. Sorry..." It's all my fault...

I ended the call abruptly when I couldn't take it anymore. I shut my eyes tight as I looked up. I calmed myself, reminding that she's happy. Cassidy is happy even though there are times she is doubting what she and Zyle have again.

I also thought Arila told him everything when theg talked. Turned out she didn't tod him. Nalaman niya lang dahil sa letter. Kung kailan huli na ang lahat.

"Ash, I thought I've done something right. Pero parang hindi naman," I said to her, smiling.

I watched her smile. The familiar smile I always saw everytime I'm here. I memorized it already. Together with the little details of her favorite dress that I bought for her.