Maybe A Drizzle Of Love [Weather Series 1]

Drizzling 39

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I felt empty. I felt like my body was floating in space while my whole mind was void. I was just staring at the ceiling. Trying to deny what was the doctor said.

I am safe.

I am alive.

But I don't feel like living anymore.

I felt the constricting pain in my chest as the voice of the doctor echoed in my head.

'I'm so sorry but the baby is gone.'

I was staring at the white ceiling of my room in the hospital. I felt my eyes watered until it pooled on my eyes, the tears started to flow on the corner of my eyes, to the edge of my ears and then to my hair that was a mess on the white pillow.

My eyes started to get blurry, but I just stared at the ceiling. Sobbing silently. Hoping to be numb.

Please...

Please, If this is a nightmare, please. Please someone wake me up...

I couldn't even move my body. I was afraid that if I move, I'll know that this was not a nightmare. That it was real. That my baby was gone. That the life that I've been caring and protecting in my body for months was gone.

In just a snap, my whole world crumbled down.

I was sniffing when I felt someone wiping my tears as I just let to flow. I saw Zyle's worried look as he dried my tears, but I couldn't feel anything except pain.

I saw his lips moving, saying something to me but I became deaf. I couldn't even hear what he was talking about even he was inches away from me.

I was just staring at the ceiling for I don't know how long. My whole world felt like muted I can't hear anything and all I can do was to stare at nothingness particularly at the ceiling because I was lying on the hospital bed.

My baby...

Another batch of tears flow from my eyes as I felt Zyle wiping my tears again, whispering things I couldn't understand, but probably to comfort me.

But nothing. Nothing will get me out of this misery now. Not from someone like me who thought she finally get what she wants the most, only take it away.

I almost have it...

Sana...

Sana ako na lang...

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I looked down on my feet with flipflops. I felt the cold steel of the armrest of the wheelchair. I looked at the garden in front of me. Parang doon lang ako nakapag-isip ulit.

Saka ko lang napagtanto kung nasaan ako.

We're on Zyle's parents house? How?

Everything happened without my senses. The last time I remember, I was staring at the ceiling. Now, I'm in their house. I don't even know when and how I came here. I just know when I stared at the flower in their garden.

How did we go here?

I watched how Zyla watered the plants. Before, I thought she was doing that because that's what she wanted. But then, she told me that it's her way to remember that special someone for her.