Third day na namin dito sa SG. This afternoon din ang flight namin back to Manila. Lian and Bella woke me up for early shopping, may mga nakalimutan daw kasi silang biling pasalubong, but I didn't go kasi ang sakit ng ulo ko. Thank God the headache has subsided. Thanks to Lian's coffee.
Nalasing man ako kagabi, I still managed to confide to her. She's very kind and understanding. Hindi naman ako manhid, pero I appreciate the love she's offering.
Although I told her na ayoko syang umasa, hindi niya isiniksik ang sarili niya. Kahit paano, nagi-guilty ako.
I'm the one who got her virginity tapos eto ako, walang maiooffer kundi trabaho at friendship. Am I rude?
Kahit ganoon ang nasabi ko sa kanya kagabi, she didn't show any angst. Sana nga hindi sya magbago ng pakitungo sa amin ni Bella. We need her. She fulfills the role of a wife, of a mother. I cannot afford to lose someone like her. Kaya sana maintindihan din niya ako.
I just don't wanna hurt her feelings. Mabuti na yung sa una pa lang honest na ko diba? Kung kaya ko lang siguro magmahal ulit, I'd choose Lian. I don't care kung madumi man ang dati niyang trabaho or kung saan man sya nagmula, I'm sure mabuti syang tao. But I can't do anything about it. For now, my heart really closed its door.
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"Mommy Lian, I want that toy" Andito kami ni Bella sa mall. May last minute shopping pa kami. Supposed to be kasama namin si brent pero matindi ata ang sakit ng ulo niya kanina. I hope nakatulong yung kape and okay na sya.
"sure baby, get anything you want... Basta yung gagamitin mo ha. Don't buy something na hindi mo magagamit."
"Ikaw mommy, did you get toys before?"
"Yes baby. I had a lot of toys before... They're still in my old room" Feeling ko tuloy na-homesick ako nung minention ko yun kay Bella. May names pa nga yung toys ko eh. Ang weird ko lang.
"Where? I wanna see!'
"Next time baby." as if namang madala ko sya sa Korea. Mabuking pa ko ni Brent and nila mom. Lagot. Hindi pa ko ready umuwi at di ko pa kayang iwan ang mag-ama.
Bella grabbed toys and halos lahat ng princess stuff gusto niya. Literally speaking she's like a princess kasi lahat ng magustuhan niya ibinibigay ni Brent.
Pero kahit spoiled tong si Bella, she remains a good girl.
"Hello ma'am. Happy shopping po."
"Hello, Filipino din kami. Oo nga eh. Halos pakyawin ng baby ko yung toys sa store na to."
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