BNHA Various x Reader [Paused]

61. Remember

I stared off into the sky watching the birds pass by. A shaky breath comes out missing those days, missing how the clouds felt on my fingertips, how the air would rush through my hair whenever I did a free fall. The feeling of satisfaction afterward is what I miss the most. I clench my sweater understanding what people would say when they lose an appendage. That they can feel a ghostish appendage wiggle around as if it was still there. I can still feel them flapping behind me.

I remember how my wings gave me the feeling of freedom and now that they're gone it's like he clipped them permanently grounding me from everything. And many would say that I can just get a new pair of wings, but it wouldn't be the same... I'm still scared of it happening again. I'm scared to feel free again and get clipped from the small taste of it.

Perhaps it would be best to forget the wings and try a new leaf than to bask in the past. To forget the old feelings I had and start new ones, but where do I start?  Maybe staying up on the roof the whole night isn't the best place to start. I glance down at my fingers watching them tremble in slight scare. Tobi's grunt took me by surprise taking my eyes away from my fingers, "Tobi go to sleep...I'll be fine"

He huffs resting his head on my lap letting out a small whine. I scratched his head deciding to not attend class today. It'll just be too much seeing everyone's smiling faces especially after how I basically lied to them putting on a facade yesterday. I continue to scratch Tobi's head hearing him snore watching the sunrise.

Hours went by and I haven't moved a muscle other than my hand petting Tobi's head. My stomach growled wanting something to eat but I had no energy to move. I was too tired to bring myself to do even a simple act nor did really feel like seeing people for the matter.

"(Y/n)-chan!! Where are you!?"

I peak over the small rails seeing a couple of my classmates calling my name. I raised an eyebrow watching them walk past our building shouting my name. I sat back down knowing that when they find me I'll have to explain why I didn't show up in class. The door slammed open behind me along with a growl I know too well.

"There you are! Idiot do you know worried we all got when you didn't show up in class?!"

Tobi sat up growling at Katsuki when he stood in front of me poking my head. "What the hell are you doing up here anyways?!"

"...I was thinking--"

"Thinking of what?! How to give everyone a panic attack?!"

"Kacchan you screaming and poking at her isn't going to make the situation any better, look let's get her inside"

Izuku's hand rests on my back making me flinch, "S-Sorry did I hurt you?!"

"No..."

"Here (Y/n) let's move you inside"

Izuku lifted my head smiling down at me, his soft smiles always bring a certain peace to a person. And yet why am I not feeling that peace? I nod slowly getting up following behind Izuku with Katsuki stomping behind me. Tobi stayed by my side staring up at me, "We thought something bad happened to you (Y/n)-chan"

Izuku says while pushing the button I shrug at his words not knowing what to say to it. The elevator opened letting us in, Izuku took out his phone typing in something and in seconds his phone brusted with messages, "Are you hungry?"