DENUDE (Book III of Momentum Series)

Chapter 43: Mutual Benefit

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Chapter 43: Mutual Benefit

Abby's POV

"D-Duri."

"D-Duri, it's not you Duri! Don't let him controls you."

"D-Duri, please. I can't hurt you Duri, please. Fight it! You became uncontrollable!"

"Duri? Are you okay? I've heard a sound of shattered glass."

"Duri?"

"I'm okay Abby, don't worry about me."

"Are you sure? If you need some help Duri, I'll be there. J-Just calls me if you need some. And Duri, I want to tell you about something–

"I said I'm okay Abby. Just do your job there, and l-leave me alone."

Duri,

I'm sorry for not telling you about my departure, but I think it would be the right thing to do. I can't tell you what is happening to me right now and to our family, but I think you will find out soon.

The moment that I said I like you before, it was all true. I am hoping that I can see you again after my problem will be solved.

Ich Liebe Dich.

The first thing you wanted to do in the morning is to do the things you wanted to accomplish. And I just can't let myself see him before I leave. But he ignored me. He did not listen to my explanation. He doesn't want to listen to my thoughts. He never accepted my emotions. But that was what I thought before.

When I told him that he is my weakness, I also became his weakness. People fade, but love will never ever fade.

I wish I can talk to him personally about my reasons. I wish I can talk to him about my thoughts right now, but here I am in the car together with Marcus.

He took my mother. And I can't let him kill her. He wanted me to do the mission he is planning since before.

Only if I can save my mother from him today, I will never join him and just go back to him. My medicine. The one who dropped me from the world of chaos. The one who changed my heart and mind. The one who became my weakness and strength. Am I too overacting? Because I guess am not.

They said the world is unfair. Yes, sometimes it is unfair, but not the world itself. It's inside the world. The ones who are inside the world.

To choose is quite difficult. Like you will either save your mother or your sister. Save yourself or your family. I hate experiencing dilemmas. It is always making me so damn crazy. Because the hardest thing that you will ever experience is that the consequences, the results. It was like you still have no escape plan. You can't escape because you are still lonely after you will choose one. They are all important to your life.

It will make your heart and mind torn into pieces. You can't use your rational mind. You will use your emotions and feelings.

Well, that is life. How about death? Can we escape from incoming death?

I don't want to lose my family, and I also don't want to lose him. So I need to leave him and the P. O. D.

And my brother Simon chose to leave P. O. D because he was irrational. They did not know about him. I just discovered it the moment Duri thought about this problem that I don't want to find evidence against my brother. Because I thought he can't do it. I thought he will not. Just a thought.