Tamed [GL-Sapphics]

Chapter 37 - Bitter & Sweet

TAMED XXXVII - BITTER & SWEET.

"Why did you say yes?"

We were both sitting at the dinning area, and there was only one chair in between us. I could easily see her facial expression since she was facing me. It looked like she wasn't very happy with the sudden decision she had made, but she felt like she had to follow through with it even if it meant sacrificing her dream.

"My mom wants me to do it, so I don't have much of a choice." Nagtanggal ito ng apron at medyo lumayo ito sa 'kin, kanina pa niya pinipigilang maging emosyonal.

"Be honest, you like it too, don't you?"

"Of course, I want it too. I want to experience living with him and being by his side. I love him, that's the truth." She explained openly. "But I also know that this is a big decision that could change my life forever. I'm trying to be brave, but it's not always easy."

My head was down and my eyes were fixed on my task, and I realized I hadn't blinked in a while. I was doing my best to listen to her, but my mind was preoccupied.

My body's been in shock for a few days now and I'm feeling worn out and drained all the time. I'm doing my best to put on a brave face and pretend everything's okay, but my body isn't on the same page.

Kahit pala gaano mo pilit na paniwalaang malakas ka at matibay... pupuwede kang unahang mapagod ng sariling katawan mo. Nakakapagod din pala.

"Good luck to the life you'll be sharing with him..as a family.." I wrinkled my nose."May your coming year, next year..be filled with happiness and good madness."

Tumugon naman siya agad. "Thank you.."

A small smile plastered on my lips, and I nodded.

"I've been secretly yearning to be with him, even with all the complications that came our way. I've always felt like something was missing in my life, and I knew he was the missing piece. My mom did her best to make up for that, and I appreciate it."

"That's the way to do it. Trust your heart and have the courage to go for it. He loves you, and maybe this is your chance to be together. Baka ito na ang daan para mas mabuo ka..."

"Gano'n siguro talaga, no matter how badly someone may have hurt you, or how much anger you may feel towards them, your love for them has the power to remain steadfast."

It was tough to admit, but she was right. Although, life shouldn't always have been like that. I was aware of this, but whenever I laid eyes on her. . . Rhio. . .my heart couldn't seem to resist falling for her all over again.

Kaya hangga't pwede sana ay ayoko muna siyang makita, kung hindi lang dahil sa importanteng scholarship na pinapangalagaan ko. Pumapasok pa rin ako sa subject ni Sir Allen na hina-handle niya kapag alam kong may announced quiz sa tulong ni Riane at kapag alam kong lecture lang ay lumiliban ako. Seeing her again is something I'd rather avoid, as there's always this feeling I get from her that pulls me in, even when it hurts me to do so.

"Ang sakit na ng mata ko," naiiyak kong bigkas. Pumikit ako para punasan ang luhang malayang lumalandas ngayon sa aking pisngi.

"Bakit kasi ang bilis mo mag-chop?! Pasalamat ka hindi mo nasugatan 'yang kamay mo!" Galit siyang asik at kinuha sa harap ko 'yung bowl ng onions na binalatan niya kanina.

Akala ko sa pagbabalat lang ng sibuyas ang nakakasakit sa mata, mas malala pa pala kapag ini-slice mo na mismo. "Ibabad ko lang sa tubig na may ice muna, ha? Let it soak for another 10 minutes. Maupo ka muna diyan!"

"Nakakalahati ko na Trina eh!" Inis ko namang reklamo. I really hate slicing onions but I find it interesting tonight, I volunteered to cook the beef steak's ingredients she prepared. Iyon lang ay hindi pa niya nahihiwa 'yung onions na binalatan niya no'ng dumating ako.