Splendiferous (Legazpi #1)

Forty-four

44.

Dumating na ang gabing magd-dinner kami ni Arlszent kila kuya Aeign kasama si dad. Actually, I just woke up from a short nap and when I realized that it's already 7:45 PM, I rushed to the bathroom and instead of taking a full bath, quick half shower na lang para mabilis akong makatapos.

Bastahan na akong kumuha ng damit na maisusuot dahil 7:56 na, supposedly 8PM ang dinner pero mukhang mal-late talaga ako ng bongga pa sa bongga dahil Parañaque pa ako manggagaling at paniguradong may traffic na naman papuntang Sampaloc, Manila.

I was already walking towards the door and because of rushing, I accidentally bumped on the small table. Umuga iyon at may nalaglag dahilan upang mabasag iyon. I crouched to see the broken vase but my eyes widened after realizing that it is not the vase that fell down..

... But the Spotify plaque that Xerxes gifted me during our first anniversary. The one where our picture is printed.

It's made out of glass that's why it easily got broken just by letting it fall down. My heart started beating fast and I suddenly felt a bad vibe out of nowhere while I'm staring at the plaque that's already crashed into small pieces.

Lilimutin ko na sana ang mga bubog nito nang tumunog ang aking telepono.

["Where on earth are you twin?! Lagpas alas-otso na!"] singhal ni Arlszent.

"I… I'm on my way! S-sorry, nakatulog lang ako!" I panicked and grabbed my car keys before going out of the door, leaving the broken plaque on the floor. I think I'll just clean that later.

On my way, my heart won't stop beating fast and nervousness had already invaded my whole being. Pero hindi ko naman alam kung ano ang dapat kong ikanerbyos o ikakaba ng ganitong kalala.

Coffee makes a person nervous especially when they drink a lot. I admit that I'm a monster for coffee pero magmula noong nalaman kong buntis ako ay tumigil na ako sa pag-inom ng kape. The doctor said it's not good for the baby, I should drink milk instead and that's what I do. Gatas, tubig, at natural fruit juice lang iniinom ko. Coffee cannot be the reason why I'm being too nervous.

Maybe this is one of the effects of being pregnant?

From what the doctor told me the day when Mauve brought me to the hospital, she told me that I'll be expecting to experience morning sickness, cravings, mood swings, mild cramps, and the likes. But I didn't know and I wasn't informed that being abnormally nervous is also included. Is it included or is it just me being paranoid?

I was thankful that Mauve kept her promise of not telling anyone about my condition, even to the girls. Gusto ko kasi, sa akin magmumula ang balitang iyon. I just need to earn some confidence and I want myself to be prepared just in case everyone won't accept my situation.

My decision is to tell Xerxes first. Since he is the father. Pero ang tagal na naming hindi nagkikita, kapag tinatawagan ko naman ay bihira lang siya nasagot at pagkuwa'y papatayin niya kaagad dahil busy siya at maraming ginagawa na importante.

Honestly, I could just send him a text message saying 'Hey, I'm preggy' but I chose not to. I want to tell it personally because want to see his reaction and how will he act upon my pregnancy.

I hope he accepts this baby.

I hope everyone will.

I could already flash to my mind the reaction of Arlszent and my mom and for sure, they'll be giving me a lot of sermons about it. As for kuya Aeign and dad, I don't know yet. I'm really scared to tell my family. I fear that they might see me as a disreputable woman or a careless Sierra-Dela Gente.