this is it next to an epilouge and my authors note
***RAINAH’S POV***
I spent a total of twenty days in the hospital. They told me I couldn’t walk for another four weeks. I was given plenty of painkillers and sedatives when I left.
My first week at home I wasn’t allowed to do much at all.
I was still afraid of letting anyone touch me, I wondered if that fear would ever go away.
Will and I were giving each other space, we talked sometimes but it felt weird to me. He had gone back to school after I was discharged.
The people that I talked to the most were Bethany and Xavier. They were the most understanding. They tried to help me find myself once again.
Xavier showed me any pictures I had of myself, he showed me videos of me performing. It was helpful and I really did appreciate him.
Self injury came back when I came home. It wasn’t about Ash though, it was about me being mad at myself for not being the same. I hurt people I used to be close to because I was different.
I had cut four times in the week I had been home, I had told no one.
It was now Monday and I had insisted on going back to school.
I knew it would suck but I felt like I needed to start trying to get back into a routine. I wanted to go on with my life and school seemed like a good start. I hated sitting around doing nothing, school could make me feel more normal.
I had found the butterfly necklace Will had given me. It made me feel stronger when I wore it.
“You call Xavier if things get too bad, alright?” Bethany said as I got out of the car.
“Got it.” I smiled nervously at her.
I grabbed my bag and crutches before I entered the school.
A lot of people stared at me and whispered to each other as I went to my first class. I tried my best to block it out.
People would be watching for my reactions, it would be best if I didn’t give any. But it was hard not to react. I wanted to run, hide or scream but I forced myself not to do anything. It surely wasn’t easy.
No one directly spoke to me until I was with Dani at lunch. We were sitting at a table, talking quietly to each other when Liz approached us.
“People are saying your daddy raped you,” she sneered when I cringed. “I bet your lying for attention. Am I right?”
I took a shaky breath and stood up to leave. Dani was at my side, I think she knew I didn’t want her to say anything.
She led the way to Will’s room. I followed, blinking back tears. I didn’t want to cry over a stupid comment but it had hit a nerve.
Will was in his room, tuning a guitar. He looked up when we entered. He looked at me and sighed. I knew he had been expecting this. He thought it was too soon for me to be back at school.
I just went to my desk and sat in the chair, putting my head down. A few tears slipped out as I heard Dani tell Will what had happened.
I think I heard her leave and Will approached me.
“Rainah, do you want to go home?” he asked in a gentle tone.
“No.” I sat up and looked at him.
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Behind Closed Doors (studentxteacher) COMPLETED
Teen Fiction***PREVIOUSLY TEACH ME*** Rainah has never had an easy life. She lives with her two younger sisters, her emotional mother and her abusive father who killed her best friend and twin brother, Ash. She blames herself for his death and has terrible nigh...