Driving Me Crazy

Chapter 18

The next morning I wake up with a kink in my neck.  I realize I fell asleep in the chair next to Shawn's bed still holding his hand.  I stand up to stretch as my doctor comes into his room.

"Miss. Cabello, you were not in your room last night.  I had the nurse check on you both last night and you seem to be fine, at least physically to me, so I'll bring you you're discharge paperwork and you're free to go." He says.

"Thank you doctor.  I'll be right here." I say.

"Ok, be right back!"

A few minutes later he returns and I get and sign my discharge paperwork.  Smiling at him, he nods and looks between me and Shawn and gives me a look like I'm making the right choice as he walks out.

A few minutes later James shows up with my big red and pink duffle bag.  "How is he?" He asks, looking genuinely concerned as he comes to stand by me.

"He's in a medically induced coma." I say sadly.  Taking James' hand in mine.  "I don't want him to die James.  We were just finding each other again." I say quietly.  He leans down and kisses the top of my head.  "I know sis." He says as her pulls me into his side.  "He'll be okay.  Besides, he needs to wake up so I can sit him down and give him the "brotherly love" talk." He chuckles slightly.  I glare up at him, as we both laugh lightly.  "Leave him alone James...besides, we aren't together officially...yet.  You don't get to be mean big brother just yet."

He again chuckles lightly as he hugs me and hands me my bag.  "I had Emma help me pack a bag for you.  I figured you'd be here for awhile."

"Thanks!  You're the best big brother ever!" I say giving him another hug.  "I'm your only brother Camila." He rolls his eyes.

"Exactly!" I smirk.

James then turns to face Shawn.  Running his fingers through his hair, he looks down at Shawn. "You better wake up man.  We are all pulling for you and hope you recover quickly.  We'll miss you on the track buddy.  Plus, I'm pretty sure my sister has some words for you when you wake up, so don't take too long because she can be very impatient."  He says as he turns to stick his tongue out at me.  "Hey!  That's not funny." I say returning the gesture.

A few minutes later James and I exchange "I love yours" and I tell him I'll text him with updates.  He tells me he's going to update the other drivers and he sends me details on a prayer circle that's being started.

I'm currently looking out the window as the nurses are taking care of Shawn.  I can't bring myself to watch him in such a weak lifeless state when they are maneuvering him to make sure he doesn't get bed sores.  My heart hurts enough as it is knowing he's got a long road to recovery ahead of him.

Once the nurses excuse themselves I go and sit back at his side.  I also managed to change out of my hospital gown and am now wearing yoga pants and an oversized T-shirt.  My hair is up in a high messy bun and I have a cup of coffee in one hand, his hand in my other.

I sit like this with him for awhile before Niall walks in.  He's asks how Shawn's doing and I tell him he's doing as good as to be expected.  He tells me they Emma and the other nurses and medical staff are planning on making meals and sending gift baskets and such for the Mendes family and my heart feels a little less broken at that.

In IndyCar, it doesn't matter who you are.  We are all family.  The whole IndyCar community has been keeping an eye on Shawn's recovery and it's really only day two.  Well wishes and words of encouragement already flooding social and the local media.  Shawn Mendes is a fan favorite so they are undoubtedly taking this just as hard as we are.

Niall turns to me and tells me he'll sit with Shawn for awhile.  He tells me to go home and shower, but I refuse.  I'll just use the shower in Shawn's room.  He nods and I know he's smart enough not to argue with me.

Heading into the bathroom, I lock the door and undress.  Turning the water in the shower to just the right temperature, I step in and let the hot water beat down on my aching muscles.  Steam fills the shower and for the first time in days, I feel relaxed.  Making it a quick shower, I exit and quickly dry off and change into a different set of clothes.  Foregoing any makeup, I brush my teeth and my hair before pulling it up into two space knots on the top of my head.  I remember this being one of Shawn's favorite hair styles, and I know that he can't see me, but it's the thought that counts.

Walking out of the bathroom I see that Karen, Manny and Aaliyah have joined Niall next to Shawn.

"Have you eaten anything yet?" Karen asks me.

I shake my head no and she hands Aaliyah money and tells us to go down and grab some food from the cafeteria.  At first I want to protest because I don't want to be away from Shawn, but I know that they need time with him too.

Aaliyah and I head to the cafeteria and both just grab a salad.  A lingering sadness shared between us.  "He's going to be okay...right Mila?" She asks.

"I hope so girl." I say simply.  I have no more words, no more tears left to cry at this point.  Now it's just a waiting game.

We sit in comfortable silence as we eat and when where done and head back up to his room, his parents are sleeping soundly on the pullout couch.  Aaliyah takes the reclining chair in the opposite corner and I take my seat next to Shawn's bed.

Lacking our fingers together, I give them a gentle squeeze and I lean forward and kiss his cheek.  "Please come back to me Shawn.  Please." I quietly plead with him.

"I think I might be falling in love with you."

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Will try and give you a couple more chapters tonight.  How sweet was James?

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