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tw: mentions of self harm
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CODYS POV (third person limited)
the buzzing. that fucking buzzing. it never stopped.
through his fogged set of blue eyes, cody watched his phone illuminate his dark room, a muted shake announced each notification.
he squinted his eyes shut and grabbed at the plushie, tugging his blanket over his head and feeling the cool air wash over his feet as they were uncovered. an annoyed grumble and he pulled his knees on towards his chest to sandwich the unicorn between himself.
he never felt comfortable in his house anymore. or, rather, any better than usual. homelife was never great, but since world tour everything had shifted tremendously.
he knew it was impossible that sierra, or anyone, could be watching him all day, but it felt like it. like he could feel prying eyes from a hidden source watching him closely every minute of every hour.
goosebumps decorated his pale skin as he threw the blanket off of him, once again letting out a defeated sigh and stumbling over to his phone. his screen flashed as sierras notifications came in waves. hed given up on blocking her. she always got a new number the next day.
he could hardly make out the time through his blurred vision, taking the back of his hand and wiping at his eyes. no use. a swipe of his hand against the pant leg of his pajamas, and the moisture was discarded.
sierra was spamming his name. at three in the morning. shed message him until five until she or him passed out, but then dj would make his daily rounds at seven in the morning to see if everyone was doing alright.
codys answer? of course! was that a lie? of course.
cody shot her a quick message, a simple 'what's up?' before he had collapsed onto his stiff bed and lay, staring at the ceiling. approximately three more flashes of light of sierra freaking out that he actually responded, and then she could get back to what she was bothering him about.
this happened so often it was like a schedule to him.
stalker
cody: what's up?
sierra: OH EM GEE
sierra: thank you for responding codykins!!!
sierra: I LOVE YOU!!
sierra: i have a few questions for you!!
cody: go ahead and ask
sierra: EEK YOURE SO KIND THANK YOU
sierra: why did you kiss noah? that tore my heart open :(
cody: im really sorry
sierra: why did you kiss him!?!??!
cody: because i didnt want you getting the twenty dollars
sierra: I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME!! I NEEDED THOSE BINOCULARS
sierra: WHY NOT
cody: uhm because i believe betting and gambling to be wrong, and if you wanted to buy something you should earn it and not by a bet
sierra: oh! :)
sierra: you're so ethical cody!
cody frowned, dropping his phone on the empty space next to him and hugging the plushie closer to him, burying his face in the soft texture. it felt as if a barrel of stones had been forced into his mouth and collected in his stomach, clogging his throat and weighing him down.
