Don't go || m.c

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Ashton's POV

I can't help but think, think about her, think about me, think about us. I don't know if I want Lil to remember us flirting or forget, what if she remembers and is disgusted that we were flirting and can see my flaws and points them out and says I was a dick for calling her pretty while she was intoxicated in hopes of sex but that wasn't why I said it at all. I said it because it was true and she deserves to know, she deserves to have someone call her beautiful everyday because she is nothing less than beautiful and if no one else will then I'd be honoured too. I can't stand to see such a beautiful girl think she isn't because no one took the time to tell her. Woah I must be drunk if I'm thinking this shit.

I start to feel really stressed, imagining different kinds of outcomes for when Lil wakes up, I close my eyes and try to take deep breaths but I see her getting angry and never wanting to see me again. I try to open my eyes but I can't, I'm forced to watch a horrible nightmare unfold.

I sit up shaking, drenched in sweat. I look around, I'm still in Lil's room and she's still beside me, "shit," I sigh, lying down and dragging my fingers through my hair to move it away from my forehead. I take a few deep breaths before Lil rolls onto her side facing me and placing her right arm over me, I can't stop smiling at that small touch, that skin on skin contact, that's what my sex ed teacher called it and said we shouldn't have skin on skin contact to the chest, not mattering of gender unless you were in a committed relationship, I don't know why he said that when here I am now, drifting off to sleep.

I wake up from a blinding light, I squint to see what it is, the window is open and shining right in my eyes, I reach over in search of Lil but find nothing, I sit up and look but I'm the only one in the room, I get up and pick my shirt up off the floor and pull it over my head. Everyone that was, is still asleep in the living room but I can't find Lil. I pull my phone from my pocket and see a text from Calum.

*where are you? Ive been here for an hour!!*

Shit, I forgot I was going to catch up with Calum at the skate park.

Lil's POV

I really need to stop forgetting about bring my clothes to the bathroom, normally it's fine because Jade would be at school and I'd be the only one here but Jade hasn't gone to school, there's about four people in the living room and Ashton is in my bedroom where my clothes are. I could put my pyjamas back on but I'm to lazy so I wrap myself in my towel and walk back to my room but Ashton isn't here.

I get changed before searching the house for Ashton but he must've left. I take two aspirins for my hangover before trying to replay what happened last night, I know I didn't have sex with Ashton but I have a blurred memory of being on top of him, I'm so confused. I grab my phone and head phones and play Good Charlotte's song, Last Night, I like listening to songs I can remotely relate to.

"GET UP AND GO TO SCHOOL!" I yell to wake everyone up, I need Harry to drive me too work and I don't want to have to go to work knowing everyone else is asleep, if I have to work they have to go to uni.

Harry says I can take his car but Niall's asleep in it so leave the keys for when he wakes up, it doesn't seem fair but that's the only way I can get to work. It's a quick drive, under 10 minutes, I pull up in a car park and put the keys on my seat, I hope Niall doesn't freak out when he wakes up.

"Happy Monday!" Tyler gleefully greets me.

"That's an oxymoron if I ever did hear one."

"Someone sounds like they had a bit too much to drink last night," he teases.

"Why are you here?" I change the subject, even though I could make a comeback because he's always getting drunk and coming to work at night with a hangover from the night before.