To heal a broken heart

Chapter 34

~Holly's POV~

We spent the whole day in Jayden's building. He told me he bought and renovated everything himself, making me internally question how freaking rich he even is. Anyways, hanging out with his friends was fun and later in the evening I felt a bit sad upon saying goodbye.

However, once Jayden and I turned up into his driveway, a small smile of happiness crept up onto my face. This day truly was something else and despite the bad start I'm happy it turned out like this.

"You wanna eat something?", he asks me as soon as we're inside. I shake my head no, I probably could, but I don't want to. He scans my face for a second, but lets it slide, maybe because I already ate a whole burger before.

"Then what do you wanna do? I don't want to be away from you yet", he admits with a sheepish smile. His dimples pop, making my knees wobble. Internally I coo at his cute expression, but on the outside I just wear a really big smile. His words make me incredibly happy, especially since I feel the same. If you asked me, he could stay 24/7.

"Let's watch a movie?", I suggest and he nods.

"Imma grab us some snacks", he grins and disappears in the kitchen. I sigh. That's why he didn't protest about me not eating anything. He's gonna make me anyway.

Trying not to think to much about the upcoming calories, I make my way upstairs and enter my room. I need to change, my jacket and skinny jeans aren't exactly comfortable enough to watch a movie.

Changing into some black leggings and an oversized shirt, I look into the mirror and sigh once again. Whereas skinny girls look cute and comfy in these kind of clothes I remind myself of a potato bag, being all big and broad. I grab my fat stomach with both hands and squeeze it, looking at myself unhappily.

"I made some popcorn, little-"

Jayden's voice stops abruptly when he sees me in front of the mirror. I spin around, startled at his sudden appearance. His eyes widen and I quickly let go of my stomach, feeling my blood rush into my cheeks.

"What are you doing?", he questions confused. I look away.

"Nothing", I lie. "You said something about popcorn?"

My attempt at trying to avoid the topic goes straight down the drain when he comes up to me and gently engulfs me in his arms.

"Please don't tell me you just disrespected yourself", he mumbles above me, seeing right through me.

"I- I-"

"I think I already told you, but you're beautiful", he murmurs in my ear, his raspy voice sending shivers down my spine. Startling me again, he carefully makes me turn around so I'm facing the mirror again while he's backhugging me.

"Look at all this. You look so cute in that. So cozy. I love how when I hug you I have so much to embrace. I love how you're not just bones and skin, but soft and fluffy, fucking hot!", he whispers seductively. I shiver in his strong arms, my eyes round, watching him with disbelief.

"I- THIS isn't hot!", I protest. "I'm- I look-"

I have to suppress an upcoming sob, this is so humiliating!

"I look fat and ugly! Don't try to convince me otherwise, I know how I look, what I am!", it bursts out of me. "Not even my own parents pretended like I'm not so why do you?!"

I can't help it, a tear escapes my eyes, followed by others. Jayden watches me with sad eyes, his arms tightening around me.

"They're wrong. Everyone telling you you're anything but absolutely beautiful is wrong! Let's start with your face. I think it's really cute, just like your personality. I always wanna squish your cheeks by the way. And your eyes... They're really beautiful, I could get lost in them forever, you know? And I wanted to kiss those lips since I saw you for the first time. I don't know if I should start with your body, because you always make me want you...", he trails of for a second, while I try to manage my weak legs, furiously blushing face and raging butterflies in my stomach all at once. Adding to that I try to hastily rub the tears away.

"Nah, I'll just tell you", he decides in that moment, grinning down at me through the mirror. "I love your curves, especially you thighs. You're just so thick and juicy, I shouldn't even tell you that, but I always want to grab you and bent you over the next table to fucking devour you! You make me go crazy with all of these curves, I could stare at you all day! I want to touch and caress your soft skin and play with your hair and hug you 24/7! So please try to think higher of yourself from now on, okay?"

He gives me puppy dog eyes, something I never saw on him before. My eyes are still wide and I hide my completely red face behind my hands. I don't know how to react. What do you tell someone who just told you he wants to sleep with you?

"I- Uhm... I- I- Errr..."

Jayden chuckles and playfully pokes my cheek.

"Don't worry, I won't do anything. Yet", he adds a bit quieter in the end, making me feel shivers going down my spine once again. However, they are pleasurable ones, filled with hopeful expectation.

"I, uhm... Okay?", I squeak still all embarrassed and shy. He just laughs again, then he pulls me out of the room and over to his.

Upon passing his door, my eyes widen once again today. There on the floor in front of his gigantic TV is a big blanket fort, complete with pillows and fairy lights. My eyes land on Jayden and I see him looking back at me nervously.

"I didn't know if you liked something like this, we can just put it away-"

"This is perfect!", I interrupt him, a huge grin taking over my face, then it changes into a teasing smirk. "I didn't know you're the type to know how to build blanket forts."

"Just for you", he smirks back, successfully making me blush. I ignore his comment and explore the small room under the blankets. It would be cramped in there, but we just have to make it fit. There's no way I'll let this slide.

"What are you waiting for? Come in!", I hurry him and eagerly pat the space next to me. He grins, but walks over to his shelves first.

"We have to decide for a movie first. What kind do you want to watch?", he asks and after a bit of a discussion regarding my dislikes for a horror movie (which he wanted to watch, but I get kind of triggered by them so we obviously choose to rather not do that) we agree on the first Harry Potter movie.

"Ahhh, I didn't see those since forever!", I squeal happily. He crawls next to me and smiles.

"I didn't either", he comments softly, hitting "play" and gently snaking one arm around me. I'm surprised by his cuddly advance, but snuggle up against his chest nonetheless. He just makes me feel so comfy and secure, it amazes me every time again.

While we watch the whole freaking movie and later on the second one as well, I kinda end up half way on top of him with his strong arms around me, cuddled into the pillows and his warm chest. His heat makes me yawn more and more and somewhere during the second movie my eyes finally fall shut, letting me slip into dream land.