Teardrops in Daylight (Salvaje Caballero Series 3)

Treinta y Tres

Hers

Brain Cancer.

How...come I never noticed? He was....carefree. Napakamasayahin at makulit niyang bata.

Nabaon na din kami sa utang dahil sa daming gastos sa hospital at sa burol. Halos hindi ko na alam kung paano ako makakabayad dahil halos si auntie ang madaming nagastos. 

Kaya....hindi maintinduhan kung bakit...Kung bakit hindi lumaban ng anak ko. Baby, mama miss you so much.. So so much that it hurts like my heart is being ripped off my body..

Linipad ako sa panahong hindi ko kayang balikan.

"The surgery is scheduled tomorrow, baby.." bulong ko sa anak at hinaplos ang noo niya.

His long eyelashes and lips resembled with his father so much. I want to see his twinkling eyes. I want to hear his cute mumbkes.. His chuckles. I miss him. I miss my baby so much.

"You......have to keep on fighting anak, okay?" sambit ko at hinalikan siya sa noo.

"I promise, I'll take you to your father once you wake up. I promise, anak."

I wasn't able to think straight because of my son....I was barely living knowing that my son is lying in the hospital bed.....fighting for his life. Fighting for a battle and I....am his mother but I can't help him.

My son was coma in a week. At parang patay na muling nabuhay, agad akong umiyak nang maramdaman ang paggalaw ng maliliit na daliri ng anak ko.

Kasabay ay ang pagbukas ng kanyang matang sobra akong nangulila.

"M-mama.." he whispered...

I cried and touched his cheeks.. I planted soft kiss on his forehead.

"Yes.....baby?"

"Sowwy....m-mama..Can't...say..p-papa...name." he whispered and pouted a bit..

My heart broke realizing what he's telling me. He can't pronounce Zach's name..

"No....p-papa?" he asked and teared up.

Doon ako tuluyang lumuha. I remembered what I told him that he'll meet Zach when he can prounounce his name properly. And.....he's holding on to him. It...hurts so much.

"M-mama...I wuv you." nahihirapan niyang sambit.

"I love you too, anak.. So much...papa and mama loves you so much..." lumuluha kong sambit habang yakap ang anak.

Mahigpit ang hawak ko sa kamay niyang habang umiiyak.

"Laban lang, anak ha? Huwag mong iiwan si mama." bilin ko sa kanya.

I cried more and kisses the back of hil little hand.

"Please...keep on fighting baby....Please." I kept on begging....but my heart broke when my son only smiled..

I caressed his cheek and brushed his hair while staring at his eyes..

"Promise me, baby....You won't leave mama....right?" My voice broke.

Halos mabiyak ang puso ko nang magsimula na siyang umiyak.

His little fingers reached my eyes, he wiped my tears...his innocent eyes is now filled with tears.

"M-mama.....no cwaying...please..." he whispered..

"No...cwayingg...please..." he repeated.

His tears fell when sobs came from my mouth..

I hugged him so dearly and bit my lip..I shouldn't cry in front of him..Not when he's fighting. I should give him strength..

"Mama....will stop..crying.." I whispered..