Teardrops in Daylight (Salvaje Caballero Series 3)

Cuarenta y Cinco

Hers

Jen left with her mom.

Agad na sumalubong sa akin ang seryosong mata ni Zach. Then....it turned to cold stare that made my insides trembled.

"Thamina. What son?" He asked.

My lips trembled. I opened my mouth to speak but....no words came out. At parang bulang naghalo ang inipon kong lakas para sa panahong ito. Lakas para sabihin sa kanya ang totoo.

"Who is Zalim?" He asked with cold voice. But....I can feel him trying to control his temper.

"Zach-"

"Answer me!" He screamed that made my eyes closed.

"Zach please--"

"Damn it, Thamina! Just fucking answer me!" He screamed.

"Zalim is our son!" I screamed back.

I wiped my tears when it fell but I felt my eyes heated again. My vision became blurry but I was able to see how Zach stopped moving.

"W-what?"

My lips trembled more when I saw him starting to tear up. Kasabay ng pagbasag ng puso ko ay ang kanyang panghihinang napasandal sa pader.

He covered his face and cried. I stepped forward so I could.....at least bring him comfort but I felt so embarassed.

Hiyang hiya ako dahil alam ko na kasalanan ko. I want to hug him to feel peace just like what he does to me....but I know it'll hurt him.

It hurts so much to realize that even hugging him will hurt him even more.

It pains me so bad that he's my peaceful sky while I'm his painful storm. My knees began to shudder as I covered my face and sobbed. I kneeled in front of him and cried more.

"P-patawad..."

With reddish eyes, I never thought I'll see those eyes filled with sadness and pain. The way his eyes twinkled when he's laughing, is....far different from the eyes that I'm seeing now.

"Tami.....where is he?" His voice broke.

I bit my lip and shook my head. I know he heard Jen.....and I know....I know that he can't believe it either.

"Zalim.....is gone..." I whispered.

Napapikit siya sa sagot ko at muling lumuha. At parang naupos na kandila, napaupo siya at mas tinakpan ang mukha.

"Y-you're lying..." He accused me.

"Zach....I wish I was..." I whispered.

I wish I was lying. But I'm not.

"Why....Tami? Why....didn't you tell me?" He asked, with pleading voice.

"Zach-"

"No matter how hard I try.....I don't understand it.."

"I have rights! Tami may karapatan ako! Anak natin yun! Tangina, bakit hindi mo sinabi?!"

Napapikit ako sa sigaw niyang mas nakakatakot pa kaysa sa kulog at kidlat. But....I know I have to answer him.

"I was....scared.....and I thought you were happy...."

"Happy?" He laughed sarcastically.

"You don't have any single idea how fucked up I was!" He screamed.

Sumiklab ang panibagong luha mula sa akin. My breathings hitched as I try to catch my breath because of sobbing too much.

"S-sorry.." that's the only word I could say.