Teardrops in Daylight (Salvaje Caballero Series 3)

Veinte

Hers

Days passed by like a fleeting second and my feelings kept on growing. At first I didn't know what it was, but eventually... I am having clues.

What I only know is that I....am falling for Zach. I am so happy when he's around. I feel so different when I'm with him. 

It's just that....there's a fear in my heart if I choose to let it decide. Paano kapag masaktan ako? Paano kami kung hindi masusunod and nakaukit na plano sa ulo ko?

What if we end up hurting each other? What....if, he's just playing? I wanted to scold myself for even doubting what Zach feels about me!

He.....haven't spoke those three letter word and I.....think I'm getting there.

"Sara......anong gagawin ko?"

Gumulong ako sa kama habang kausap ang kaibigan sa kabilang linya.

"Tanga ka talaga! Akala ko ba gusto mo na si Zach?"

Napakagat ako sa labi at tumango kahit hindi niya kita.

"Pero-"

"What are you really afraid of, Thamina? Commitment?"

I sighed. "No...you know I don't have any experience."

I inhaled deeply and shut my eyes. "I'm not afraid of commitment. I'm scared of getting hurt." I honestly spoke.

She was silent for minutes then I heard her heavy sighs.

"You'll really get hurt, Tami. There's no perfect guy, always remember that. You just have to choose the person who's worth the pain."

"And....if you think Zach is worthy, then go for it." she added.

Her words echoed in my head. Nanatiling sapat ang kanyang mga salita na bumabagabag sa akin ng ilang araw. Sapat din  para hindi ako makakuha ng tamang tulog sa kaiisip.

"Uhh...Tami, may sasabihin sana ako."

Napatingin ako kay Dione habang naglalagay ng kaunting lip tint sa labi ko. Handa ng pumasok sa paaralan, bitbit ko na ang sariling handbag.

"Ano iyon?"

She smiled with her eyes looking at me like asking for a favor.

"Lorenzo....will be staying here in our apartment. Okay lang ba?"

Bahagya ako natigilan at napatingin sa kanya.

"We'll share rooms..." she added, like it's going to change my mind.

I sighed and forced a smile.

"Pag-iisipan ko, Dione. Okay lang ba?" nahihiya kong sambit.

She smiled and hugged me a bit. Parang mas naging lutang ako papasok sa paaralan dahil sa lahat ng iniisip. Dumagdag pa ang pagtira daw ng nobyo ni Dione sa apartment.

I feel so uncomfortable with that thought. I don't want to sound judgemental but I don't seem to trust her boyfriend. I am not usually like this but I don't know! Buti sana kung separate ang banyo namin....pero iisa!

Oo mas mababawasan ang babayarin pero magiging maayos ba ang lagay naming tatlo? Iniisip ko palang ang sitwasyon namin, sumasakit na talaga ang ulo ko.

What if....I just move? I'll find different apartment? Kahit yung pang isahan na lang? Maiintindihan naman siguro ni Dione kung bakit ko gagawin iyon.

Marcus didn't bother me anymore. One time when I honestly told him that he doesn't stand a chance. I told him in a nice way but I guess there's no nice way of rejecting a person because it'll always hurt.