Teardrops in Daylight (Salvaje Caballero Series 3)

Cuarenta y Seis

Hers

I know I deserve his cold treatment. And I understand him. I understand why. If I were him, I'd.....be furious. I want to be with him for the rest of my life but......if seeing me will only cause him pain...then I'm ready to go. I'm ready to leave.....but now, for good.

Aalis ako kung hihilingin niya. Pero hanggang hindi pa, maari bang sulitin ko muna ang sandaling kasama ko siya?

Because if he asks me to leave, then okay. It will hurt me....but it will kill me to stay knowing that he's hurting because of me.

Tahimik na lang akong sumunod sa kanya papunta sa parking lot. I am expecting him to get inside his car but he didn't. Instead he opened the door of his passenger seat.

"Get inside." He commanded.

Wala akong imik na pumasok at nagseatbelt. I put my bag in my lap and looked at the window of his car.

"We'll get there by sunset." He coldly said. I just swallowed and looked away.

"His......grave is beside Lola." I whispered.

He just nodded. His jaw moved before he started the engine. He drove so fast exceeding the speed limit, like he was in a race. I should be nervous by now because we might get into an accident but my trust for him is bigger than anythingelse.

Is it even possible to feel safe at this state? Because......I do.

"Kumain ka na?"

I forced a smile and looked at him who's looking straight ahead. His reddish nose made it so obvious that he cried.

"I'm...not hungry." I whispered.

He just sighed and became silent.  At parang mas nagiging mabagal ang pagpatak ng bawat segundo sa sobrang tahimik naming dalawa. Walang nagsasalita, tila ba pinapakiramdaman lang ang bawat isa.

I had to look at the window and just watched the sky. Jen suddenly crossed my mind. She said Lali will take good care of my Zalim up above. I smiled at that thought but it still hurts me.

'Lali, please take good care of my baby..' I silently prayed.

True enough...we reached the cemetery by sunset. The sunset looked so peaceful, very opposite to what I'm feeling.

Nauna akong bumaba at sumunod siya sa likod ko. I felt he stopped walking the reason why I looked back, only to see him blankly staring at the ground.

When our eyes met, I saw a pair of watery sad eyes.

"Does he hate me? Before he died......did he looked for me?" His voice broke.

That's the time when I had the courage to walk near him. Even his shoulders looks so tired.

Unti-unti nanamang namuo ang luha ko at lakas loob na hinawakan ang kanyang pisngi.  I wiped his tear and brushed his cheeks a bit.

"Zalim......is the kindest and sweetest. He doesn't know how to hate...He loves you so much.."

"Mahal.....na....mahal ko siya, kahit hindi ko siya nakilala." Bulong niya at tumingin sa akin.

And those eyes......Those tantalizing and expressive eyes are filled with sadness, sorrow and pain.

He closed his eyes as his lips began to tremble. Another tear from his eyes fell and it broke me.

Ipinadausdos ko ang kamay ko mula sa kanyang pisngi hanggang sa kanyang balikat papunta sa kanyang braso at tumigil sa kanyang magaspang na kamay.