What Are You? - Ohmtoonz Fanfiction

Thinking About Love (31)

(Hey guys just a quick announcement, today is @i_keep_getting_gayer 's birthday today!!!! I wanted to wish her a happy birthday with many more to come! <3)

I don't know what to think anymore. I wanted to try and ask Luke about what Tyler had said a while back. Something about his past or where he came from. His mother and family. I felt that then was the right time to ask.

I was so close!

But that stupid phone call ruined it.

Luke and I are close. I think...

Actually, I really don't know. I would like to think that we are dating. But it's not like Luke would ever just come out and tell me. He's Luke. He has to make everything so difficult.

I crossed my arms. Right now, I was laid down in the center of Luke's bed, staring up at the ceiling. I turned over to Luke's pillow and curled up. It smelled just like him. My heart quickened its pace. I missed him a lot. Maybe, too much. The second he left I had wished he'd come back...

It all feels like a blur. I just met Luke a few days ago. Everything escalated so quickly, I feel like life needs to slow itself down. I really, really like Luke. He used the word love. I even moved into his fucking place!

It just seems strange. A little bit like life is crunching several years into a few short days. It's strange. Nothing this eventful has ever happened to me like these days. 

My hand roamed over the covers and felt the soft fabric beneath them. Was it really appropriate for us to be sleeping in the same bed? I mean, it's not like we're going to do anything so it should be fine...Luke would never make me do anything I was uncomfortable with. 

My mind drifted to our small cuddle session before. The way he pulled me in and held on. I missed it. My face went red and I buried it deep into is pillow. After a long sigh I lifted my head and looked over at the bandana on my side table.

Who knew a grey piece of fabric could hold so many memories. Years of hiding my face all thrown away by one man saying he liked my smile.

I'm an idiot.

I let out a loud sigh and wrapped my arms around Luke's pillow. My phone dinged from inside my pocket and I yelped slightly. Putting down the pillow and checking it immediately. I picked it up to see a school number. Not the name I was looking for... 

It was a long paragraph that was apparently from my principle, asking to meet with me and my mother to discuss what happened with Mike. 

Although I was annoyed, I politely explained my mother situation to my principle and said I would be attending alone if I had too. Supposedly they wanted me to come at the end of school tomorrow.

Did I want to go?

No.

Did I want Mike to get in trouble?

That is also a no.

When I think about it if he gets expelled, he's going to have a lot of time on his hands to get revenge. He'll hate me for forever and the bullying will only get worse by his friends. The school won't do anything, they never do.

My eyes landed back on the pillow.

But I have Luke. A small smile ghosted my lips.

I really love him.

I think it would have killed me waiting any longer for one of us to say something.

My phone dinged again. This time a small heart appeared as the contact name. I immediately attacked my phone and read the message from Luke.

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Hey Ry! Make sure you rest and eat your breakfast (It is on the top shelf in the fridge). Remember what the nurse told you to do for your bruises. Don't overdo yourself today!

...

That alone was enough to make my heart flutter. Until the next text came.

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I love you. Please be careful I'll come home soon.

...

With that, my heart imploded. I tossed my phone to the end of the bed and covered my face with my hands.

Goddamn it. I'm in so much deeper than I thought.

It took me a few seconds but I grabbed the phone and texted back a short response.

...

I love you too Luke. Don't worry, I'll be fine.

... 

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Happy Birthday babes, I hope it is so wonderful and you have a great time! I wish I could be there to celebrate it with you!

<3 (kisses) ARS