marvel x reader one shots

Home (Loki Laufeyson)

Loki Laufeyson X Reader

Warnings: depression, mentions of suicide (pls if you're sensitive to that do not go on further)

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Home. Home was where she wanted to be. Here was not home. The avengers had tried to make it home, tried to be a family, but it could never be home. All she wanted to do was quit, to give up and go home.

Everything felt numb as she lay curled up on the bed. She didn't know where home was, but she knew exactly how to get there. Her body shook as she silently sobbed. Home was so close, so easy to get there. She could name a hundred different routes, but could she take the leap? Could she jump head first knowing she couldn't go back and that home may not even exist anymore?

She pulled herself up from the bed and felt tears continue to slip down her cheeks. This wasn't home, she just wanted to go home. Its a risk, she knew it was, but at least it would be home. Home with her parents.

Her hand grasped the metal knob of the bathroom door and she mentally prepared herself to pull it open, when a knock sounded at her door. She froze. At first she wasn't sure if she'd imagined it, if maybe some part of her was desperate to stay alive and was tricking her into it, but the knock sounded again.

She glanced at the door and then back at her hand. She wanted to go home she was certain of that, but what if she was wrong? What if she simply hadn't found home yet. Her grip on the doorknob faltered for a moment, another knock sounded and all of a sudden it felt like it was now or never. She pulled the bathroom door open, before she could shut it behind her, a foot was lodged in-between the door and the frame.

She released the doorknob as the door was pulled back open. Her gaze was at the floor, she couldn't process anything enough to even stand. As she began to collapse letting out a loud sob a pair of arms caught her and carried her to the bed. She felt the soft mattress underneath her.

She attempted to say something or to look up. (Y/N) willed her muscles to work, but all that came out was yet another loud sob. She shook violently, the hands that held her earlier were still wrapped around her.

"I- I just" she began, although she wasn't even sure what she was saying "I- want- I just want to go home" she said through sobs.

"I know darling, I know" Loki's voice cooed. He flicked the bedroom door shut with a twist of his wrist, so as not to alert the others to the situation.

"L-loki?" (Y/N) questioned finally looking up.

"Yes dear?" He asked as he began rubbing small circles on her back.

"Why are you- I don't understand?" She said as her emotions settled.

"You mortals are so fragile" he sighed as he pulled her into his chest. He'd been listening in on her thoughts, yes it was wrong of him, but he'd grown fond of her and had nothing better to do. Now that he was here holding her he was glad he'd been listening, Loki didn't want to know what would've happened if he hadn't been ease dropping.

"I'm sorry" (Y/N) sobbed as she desperately tried to control her breathing. Her hands moved up to his chest and she clutched onto the soft fabric of the shirt he was wearing.

"It's alright dear, you're okay" he hummed softly as he placed a feather light kiss on the top of her head. Once (Y/N) had calmed down a bit she reluctantly pulled away from Loki, just enough that she could see him, but not so much that his arms wouldn't still be wrapped round her.

"Loki why are you here?" She questioned.

"I heard you crying, love" it wasn't a complete lie it just wasn't the truth. "I miss my mother too" he admitted. It made (Y/N) a little bit happier to know she wasn't the only one and a little bit was all she needed for now.

She'd work out the details of what had happened later and Loki was definitely going to convince her to talk to a doctor (probably Bruce). For now he let the subject drop, she was content. They lay in a comfortable silence as she snuggled back into his chest and he just held her.

She hadn't known what home was before, but if it was anything like what Loki's arms felt like around her, she'd quite happily stick around to find it.

-bonus-

Loki awoke with (Y/N) still lying in his arms, the midday sun brushing across her features. Her cheeks were tear stained and her hair was a mess, but she was still the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen. A small smile played at his lips. They should probably get up, but she was most definitely exhausted so he thought he'd let her sleep a little longer.

He brushed a stand of hair out of her face and his hand rested on her shoulder. He had almost drifted back to sleep when the door was opened.

"(Y/N)- Loki?" Steve questioned as he saw Loki lying in (Y/N)'s bed. Loki turned his head to the door so he could see Steve, as he turned he revealed a little of (Y/N)'s sleeping form. He placed a finger to his lips to shush the super soldier.

Slowly he began to try and slip out of the bed but (Y/N)'s grip on him tightened.

"Five more minutes" she mumbled nuzzling her face back into Loki's chest. He let out a small laugh.

"You heard her, five more minutes" he repeated to Steve who hesitantly shut the door completely bewildered at the sight he'd just seen.