Tears on you

Broken

Zak's point of view

It's been a few weeks now since Y/N had to leave and each day that passes I hurt more and more. I was hit hard two weeks into the new year and this pain is more unbearable. After the mayhem of new years break its finally time to go on a investigation again, in a way I was looking forward to this investigation but at the same time I'm not.

I miss Y/N like crazy... I can't eat, can't sleep, can't even think properly. I really need to see her. Thankfully we have been able to talk and facetime but it's not the same. As me and the guys was travelling in the RV to the next location about 3 hours in we decided to stop in a little town called Tipton for a fuel break and some food.

Whilst we was inside the restaurant Aaron decided to take some pictures of us guys to post on his Instagram story.

Aaron: "come on dude smile for the camera"

I really wanted to smile but with the way I'm feeling I don't want to smile ever again. I was starting to feel broken again, I need space.

Zak: "leave me alone"

I got up from my seat and headed outside to be by myself. As I was standing outside it started to snow slightly, I normally like seeing snow falling but right now the cold snowflakes is a reminder of how cold my heart feels without the love of my life by my side.

As the guys was still inside eating I sat in the bench and looked through Instagram. Whilst I was scrolling through Instagram I couldn't help but look at Y/N's Instagram, she hasn't really posted much lately but every photo she uploaded of herself I can see she's feeling the exact same way as I do.

She still looks so beautiful but yet she looks so broken. I really wanted to comment something but I have no idea what to say until...

Zak: "I miss you 😔❤️ xxxx"

After I sent Y/N the comment I finally received a text message from her.

Y/N: "Hey Zak I miss you too 😔❤️ xxxxx"

Zak: "I really want to see you xxxx ❤️❤️"

Y/N: "I want to see you too baby, where are you guys on your way to? Xxxx"

Zak: "we're on our way to a location but right now we're stopped for a pit stop break xxxxxx"

Y/N: "where are you investigating? Xxxxxx"

I really want to tell Y/N where we're investigating but I don't know as we're investigating a location in Sacramento I really want to see Y/N but in a way I don't want to see her.

I know that sounds really bad but I just don't want either of us to be in pain again when we have to leave each other. It killed me and still hurts me being without Y/N.

Zak: "we're actually investigating Sutter's Fort state Historic Park xxxx"

Y/N: "really? That's here in Sacramento and not too far from me 😁 why don't you guys come and see me xxxxxx"

Zak: "I really do want to see you baby but the pain of leaving you kills me xxxxx"

Y/N: "who says you have to leave me again? xxxxx ❤️❤️"

Zak: "baby... Please 😔 I can't xxxx"

Why am I being so stupid, I should go and see my girl. I should spend time with her.

Y/N: "please come and see me baby, I really miss you and want to see you xxxxx"

Zak: "what about your parents, they don't want you to see me xxxx"

Y/N: "fuck them! They can't stop me from seeing you. Where are you guys staying? Xxxxxx"

Zak: "we're staying at the Westin Sacramento xxxxxx"

Y/N: "I know where that is, I'll come and see you later if you want xxxxxx"

Zak: "I want that more than anything baby you know that ❤️❤️ xxxxxx"

Y/N: "I'll see you later baby xxxxxx❤️"

Zak: "I'll see you later beautiful xxxxxx ❤️❤️❤️"

After I read over Y/N's texts again I put my phone away and was just about to return to the guys when they came over to me.

Aaron: "Hey dude you OK now?"

Zak: "yeah I'm good bro"

Jay: "do I see a smile on your face there Zak?"

Zak: "yes you do"

I couldn't help but smile more at Jay's comment.

Billy: "what's the news then Zak?"

Bacon: "yeah come on man tell us"

Zak: "I'm seeing Y/N later"

Aaron: "oh my god dude really?"

Zak: "really really"

Jay: "I'm so happy for you Zak, can we come with you to see her too?"

Aaron: "yeah"

All the guys laughed and I couldn't help but smile. I really do wish the guys would see her but I want time where its just me and Y/N.

Billy: "come on bros let's give Zak some alone time with his girl, he hasn't seen her in so long"

No matter what these guys was saying I couldn't wipe this smile off my face, for once in a little while I'm happy again and can't wait to see my my girl.

Y/N's point of view

For once in a while I'm feeling happy and nothing can ruin this moment right here. I'm finally seeing Zak again and I can't wait to hold him and for him to hold me in his arms.

As I was downstairs in the kitchen my mom noticed I was texting someone.

Y/M's/N: "who are you texting sweetie? You got a massive smile on your face"

Should I tell her Zak is texting me, I don't want to run the risk of her stopping me from seeing Zak, she has already said to me she doesn't want me to see Zak ever again. I need to come up with a plan.

Y/N: "I'm just texting a friend"

Y/M's/N: "it better not be Zak, you know how I feel about him"

Y/N: "mom Zak's not a bad guy, he's helped me through so much in Las Vegas and I've helped him too, he's a great guy"

Y/M's/N: "he's nothing but trouble, you almost died because of him and also had issues with a ex girlfriend....yeah he sounds like a great guy"

I felt myself started to flip, if she says anything else I'm seriously gonna let out everything I'm holding back.

Y/M's/N: "and I know Zak is coming into town, if I see or hear you've met up with him then you can kiss that relationship goodbye"

Shit I keep forgetting my mom works at Sutter's Fort as a tour guide, she's going to be the one interviewing Zak.

Y/N: "what? I didn't know the guys was coming to Sacramento"

Y/M's/N: "don't play dumb with me I know you know Zak and the guys are on their way here. Guess what missy you're not seeing them"

Y/N: "I'm 28 you can't tell me who I can and can't see"

Without another word my mom came over to me and slapped me, she slapped me so hard she put a big cut across my face.

Y/M's/N: "if you ever! Speak to me like that again I'm going to seriously hurt you in more than one way. You understand?"

I didn't say anything I just stood there all quiet.

Y/M's/N: "I don't even know what you see in Zak anyway he's too old for you"

Again I couldn't say anything I quickly grabbed my phone and went upstairs to my room. As soon as I shut door and locked the door I fell down against the door, leaned against it and began to cry.

Someone please help me, get me out of this hell