Above: Alix At Livadia 1914
I sunk to my knees i was in a puddle of mud but i didn't care. My love was alive but he no longer loved me. I wanted to stay there forever but i decided to go back to the farmhouse i knew i would always be welcome there and right now i needed some comfort. I slowly trudged back to the farmhouse the rain was coming down harder and it was getting colder out. I walked back there with no thoughts in my mind just emotions swirling around a few tears leaked over my eyes but i kept walking my face showing no emotion. I was just numb. With cold and with shock and emotion. I kept telling myself that as soon as i reached the farmhouse i could break down and cry all i wanted but oddly i didn't feel like crying. I was just hurt. When i was almost there i started having stabbing pains in my abdomen. The farmhouse was just a few yards away. But the pains kept coming and i had to keel over whenever i tried to walk i had to keel over again and eventually i had to sit down on the muddy ground. And of course the rain started coming down harder and i sat there in pain sobbing in the mud and rain. "God why have you forsaken me?" I called out to the heavens above me. I decided i would not let this kill me so i started crawling the few yards to the house. My face and fingernails were caked with mud and the rain was blinding me but i kept going i finally clawed my way onto the porch sobbing all the way there. Somehow God let me stand up and wobble into the house i knew the door would be unlocked because Annika always left the door unlocked when she was home. But the door wasn't unlocked it was locked. i sobbed and sunk to the floor against to the door frame i was partially shielded from the rain and i was out of the mud but it was so cold. Finally i saw Annika coming down the road with a man. "Please." I gasped. "Help" I heard someone say something but i didn't know what i was so relieved to be safe. The man picked me up and carried me inside and upstairs into my old bed.
A/N: Sorry the past few chapters have been so rough the next one will be happier i promise! :)
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