Rhythm Of The Waves (COMPLETED)

Prolouge

I opened my eyes as several bright beams of light touched my face, it's yet another day. Tumingin ako sa gilid ko nang may naramdaman akong yumakap sa kamay ko. A little girl snuggled in between my arm and stomach. Ang cute niya talaga.

Bigla siyang humikab 'tsaka bumangon, habang kinukusot-kusot ang kanyang kanang mata, ngumiti siya sa akin, "Good morning, mommy," she said in her morning voice. Yakap-yakap niya pa 'yung teddy bear niya.

Ngumiti din ako 'tsaka hinalikan ko siya sa noo. "Good morning, baby."

Tumayo ako tsaka pumunta sa banyo, sumunod din siya sa 'kin. "Mommy, I can't reach," sabi niya habang tinuturo 'yung toilet. Lumappit naman ako sa kanya. "Don't worry, mommy will help you," I giggled and helped her sit on the toilet.

She then joined me in taking a bath. Pagkatapos naming maligo at magbihis, we headed to the kitchen to eat breakfast. Habang papunta kami 'dun, pumasok muna ako sa kwarto ni Abby. Nadatnan ko siya doon na nababasa ng BL. "Oh, ofcourse, reading BL first thing in the morning, what else did I expect?" tumawa ako habang nakasandal sa pintuan niya.

"It's my daily dose of BL, Yara. I can't live without it," I rolled my eyes at her. "I'll go buy groceries later, pakibantay muna sa kanya, ha?" I told her. "Ah, I'll be cooking breakfast," I added.

"Okaaaaay!" lumabas na ako sa kwarto niya at dumiretso sa kusina. I decided to cook eggs and bacons for breakfast.

While eating breakfast, bigla siyang nagtanong sa 'kin. "Mom, what's my dad like?" napatigil ako a pagsubo dahil 'dun. Abby was just as shocked as I was. Abby looked at me then sighed.

I gulped. It's not the first time she's asked me this. And as she's growing up, she becomes more curious about her father. Ngumiti ako ng mahina 'tsaka hinawakan ko yung pisngi niya. "Your dad was very, very sweet. He's handsome too! He helped mommy when she was having problems..." and I loved him very much.

"Wow! So he was like your own prince charming, mommy?" tanong niya pa. Ngumiti na lang ako. "Yes baby, he was mommy's prince charming."

Napaawang ang bibig niya. She was right, he was indeed just like my own prince charming, but life is no fairytale, and happy ever after doesn't exist.

It seemed like she was thinking about something, until she asked me again, "Then, where is daddy now, mom?" napatigil ako.

It felt like there was a lump in my throat and an insane amount of guilt was pushed into me. I felt disappointed and embarassed that I can't even answer my child's question. Hinawakan ni Abby yung kamay ko, 'tsaka niya ako nginitian.

"Ah, mommy will buy groceries muna, tita will stay here with you in the meantime, ok?" sabi ni Abby sa anak ko.

I thanked Abby a lot for that. But, it felt really bad, na hindi ko kayang sagutin yung tanong niyang iyon. Because, even I, myself, doesn't know where her dad is, or how he's doing. It's been years, and he's probably living well right now, pero heto naman ako... I still have these lingering feelings.

Habang papalabas ako, nagtanong naman siya sa 'kin ulit. "Where did you get my name from, mom?"

Nung nasa grocery na ako, I still felt stuck from what she asked earlier. Her name was very pretty, one that I got from her father.

"Blaire..."

"Um, excuse me, miss..." nagulat ako nang may nagsalita sa kanan ko, I apologized and gave them space to take something from the shelf I was in front of earlier.

"I'm sorry, do I know you?"

Lumaki ang mga mata ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Shit, I knew I should've wore eyeglasses, who knew somebody will recognize me? I've been too carefree just because it's been years since that issue.

"Ah, no, you must be mistak-- huh?" I couldn't believe what was infront of me-- who it was.

In a flaah, I saw myself running away from there, leaving what I should've bought. Tears were streaming down my face as I made my way to my car. There's no way, I must've been mistaken. Hindi naman siya 'yun diba?

Pinaandar ko ang kotse ko at aalis na sana nang tumawag si Abby. I answered the call. My heart is pounding!

"Yara, while you're there, can you buy me a couple of facial masks, you know the ones I use diba, yun lang."

"I can't, sorry," my voice started to become shaky, halatang anxious ako, even through the phone.

"What happened?"

"He's here, Abby."

"No way..."

Huminga ako ng malalim, "He's here, Blaze is here."