Rhythm Of The Waves (COMPLETED)

02 - Back Home

"What's bothering me, huh?"

Bumuntong-hininga ako at umupo. I also told Blaze to sit down. In-explain ko kay Blaze yung nangyari kanina. Yung kondisyon ni lola ngayon. Na babalik na ako sa Pilipinas. Na kailangan kong mamili sa pamilya o trabaho ko. Blaze just listened quietly to my story. He didn't utter a single word and just listened to me.

Habang sinasabi ko sa kanya yung hinaharap kong problema ngayon, I felt a weight get off of my shoulders. I felt like I could breathe, even though just a while ago, I felt so suffocated. Nakakagaan ng loob na narito ngayon si Blaze at nakikinig sa akin. Even with him not saying anything, I felt reassured, it was as if with his presence only, he told me that it was going to be fine. Sinandal ni Blaze yung ulo ko sa dibdib niya, he slowly stroked my hair.

"It must be hard to choose..." he spoke, "Pero, what if piliin mo silang dalawa at the same time?"

Napatingin ako kay Blaze dahil sa sinabi niya. He was also staring down at me, kaya nagtama yung mga mata namin. Bigla akong napatingin sa ibang direksyon dahil 'dun.

My face... I'm sure it's red right now.

"What do you think?" I came back to my senses when Blaze asked me.

Choosing both at the same time? I would gladly do so, pero paano? I can't think of a way to do it...

Huh? Wait...

"Do you mean, to work at home?" tanong ko kay Blaze.

He nodded. My mouth gaped open. Napa-alis ako sa dibdib niya at hinarap ko siya. How did I not think of that sooner? A smile grew on my lips.

For a moment, para bang nakalimutan ko kung sino 'tong nasa harap ko. It's Blaze, yung Blaze na kasama ko mula pagkabata, yung Blaze na palagi akong tinutulingan sa bagay-bagay, yung Blaze na gusto ko.

I can't help but stare at him. The illuminating light from the moon made it seem like he was straight out of a movie, like he was some leading man of a romance novel. He's so stunning. I wonder... how might it feel to be loved by him? Would it feel like being on cloud nine? Would it feel so good that I might burst? I want to be the woman he loves. Pero... it might come as impossible.

He's smart, has clear goals in life, he's responsible, he's sweet, he's respectful... it was like he was a perfectly-written person. I can't help it, kahit anong pigil ko, my feelings keep overflowing... no, not yet overflowing.

My feelings for him are like a glass full of water... so full that only one drop is needed for it to finally overflow. For it to overflow and never stop. For it to overflow until all of it spills out and none is left.

Alam ko namang ako lang yung masasaktan sa huli, but why is it that I can't stop even if I want to? I know so well na maliit lang yung chance that he might have feelings for me that way as well. But why do I hold on to that little chance? A chance that might make me the happiest person or break me without mercy.

"Yeah," he smiled.

I looked away. These little things he does, it always makes me want to misunderstand. It makes me want to think that he does this because he likes me as well. It makes me want to get drowned in a hallucination I made for myself. I feel so dumb, yet I still continue to do it.

"I think I could do that!" ngumiti ako. What would I do without this man?

Just like what we talked about in the rooftop, sinabi ko rin kina mom at sa manager ko yung gagawin ko. They told me that it might be hard for me at first, but they're pretty sure that I'm capable of doing it. I'll only be having online concerts at yung mga kanta ko doon ko na lang gagawin sa bahay ni lola, since her house has a ton of rooms, I can use one of those as a studio.