Beyond The Walls

Chapter 058

Crazy

Jiro

What have I done? Why did I hurt him? What has gotten into me?

I started overthinking after what happened. I didn't mean to hurt Amir and Yukan. I swear I wasn't myself when I did that. Am I going crazy?

"Hey." I turned my head to see who called me, and it was captain. I sighed before putting my head down the table.

"What you did there was totally uncalled for. How can you say those things to someone you grew up with? A wimp? Amir's not a wimp. He's the brain of this group right after Eric died. The wimp around here, is you." His words were like daggers stabbing my heart. But he's right. I'm the wimp here. I let my frustrations get into me.

"If you want to apoligise, Amir's inside the infirmary getting treated." He said before standing up, leaving me alone. I sighed before standing up to go to the river bank.

I took a seat on the hard concrete stairs while throwing rocks across the water. I was about to throw again when someone grabbed my hand. It was Eren.

"What are you doing here?! Am I dreaming?" I asked before started hitting my face. I heard him sighed before sitting right next to me.

"I once did that to Armin. I did that because I was trying to protect them. I even told Mikasa I hated her right from the start." He said while looking up the sky.

I rest my chin over my arm before rubbing my face. I'm totally dreaming right now. How can he appear in reality?

"Jiro. If you really wanted to save humanity, you need to take a risk." He said. I was about to ask him what it meant but he was already gone. Okay, I'm totally going crazy.

I stood up before going to the infirmary. I need to apologise to Amir. I didn't mean to hurt him like that. I lost my control. And I'm afraid that won't be the last time I'll be hurting someone.