What If's

CHAPTER 6

"Eto na ba lahat ang ipapamigay mo iha?" Almost five boxes were at the door of my room, my old stuffs. "Opo manang that's about all of them."

"Ow what's this box?" Manang and I turned to Andrea's direction. A blue box about 4 inches tall was in her hand. Walang pagdadalawang isip kong hinablot mula sa kanya ang kahon.

"Do not touch this Aya, gosh!" I went inside the closet to place somewhere safe, away from my annoying cousin. "Ang damot mo, what's inside it ba?" She was leaning against the door frame while intently looking at me.

"Just some stuff."

"Really? 'Some stuff'? Maski yata si manang nagulat sa reaction mo eh. Ano ba yun? Condoms, sex toys or kinky stuffs? Try me Alex, open-minded ako." There's a hint of amusement in her eyes as she teased me.

"Gaga ka ba, kinky stuff? I'm not like you. Basta wala nga, random trinkets I collected in the past" nakatingin parin siya sakin, unconvinced with my reason but she let it slide.

"Mabuti naman at naisipan mong mag general cleaning dito sa kwarto mo, I was actually about to open the topic up." 

Yes I cleaned my room. After what happened in the playground earlier I realized that this room of mine was so full of things that would actually remind me of him, and I don't want that. With the help of Manang and Andrea, we changed the sheets and curtains, re-arranged the furniture and threw some things out, yung iba ay for donations.

"You really want this bear out? It's cute pa naman," a human-sized stuffed bear with chocolate fur and pink bow. "Yeah, the kids at the orphanage will love it," I said. 

"Who gave you this? Ang thoughtful  niya masyado ha, alam niyang like mo ang mga cute na bagay--" she stopped on her sentences and looked at me with sad eyes, I hate it when she looks at me like that. I gave out a loud sigh and gave her a slight nod. 

"Happy 1st month love," he said as he handed me the bear. "Wow, so cute," he chuckled at my reaction.

"He's name is Cuddles, and he's our baby." I blushed at his remark. Baby? ganon na kalayo ang iniisip niya? We've been dating for a month now and I've never been happy.

"Since hindi mo ako nakakasama all the time let Cuddles be my proxy." I stared into those brown orbs of his. He's so dreamy. I'm just so lucky to have him. 

"Thank you for this Ryan, I love it." 

"No problem love, everything for you."

"Can you stop that Alexandra, ang creepy mo ha." I looked at her confused. "Stop blacking out! Yung bigla ka nalang natutula and then  you'd just stare into space, utang na loob tigilan mo yan."

Hindi ko na siya pinansin at nahiga nalang sa kama ko, staring into the ceiling. "What if we didn't break up, sa tingin mo masaya kaya kami ngayon?"

She didn't answer. Wala napaisip lang ako, I mean what could happen right?

I felt the bed move, she lay down beside me. "Alam mo hindi ko rin alam. Maybe oo pero pwede rin namang hindi. I mean sa loob nang limang taon maraming pwedeng mangyari."

I sighed she's right. As always.

"Pero alam mo couz, I think what happened in past is actually a good thing." 

"What do you mean a good thing? So its good that I got my heart broken ganon ba Andrea?"

"No silly. It's good kasi because of it you grew, it helped you to stand for yourself and not to depend on anyone especially him."

Did I really grew up? Did I became better?

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"So how are things in your work Alexandra?" Napatigil ako sa pagsubo ng pagkain. "It's all good mom," I said.

We are having dinner and its very unusual since sabay kaming kumain lahat. My busy dad, my annoying brothers, Andrea and of course the ice queen-- my mother.

"So anong ginawa niyo today princess?" Our attention went to Kuya Joshua, see hindi niya kayang manahimik pero mabuti narin at naisipan niyang basagin ang katahimikan sa dining hall. 

"We cleaned my room." 

"That's good," and then silence fell upon us again. Ganito talaga kami pag sabay-sabay kumain daig pa yung library na bawal mag-ingay. Mother is very intimidating kaya para kaming mga tutang takot mapagalitan.

"Kailan mo balak mag-resign Alexandra?" Muntik ko nang mailuwa ang kinakain ko dahil sa gulat. "Why would I do that mom?"

"Why would you rather work in an average company and be a normal employee when you can be the boss at ours." She said in a rather calm manner.

"I love my job mom." I'm trying to control myself, ayaw kong sumigaw. It's rude.

"Sooner or later Alexandra you have to help our company." She slowly wiped her lips and left.

We were quiet for some moment until--

"Well that was eventful." Kuya Gino said.

"I agree, I missed those kind of moments." Inirapan ko ang mga kapatid ko. You see, my mother and I don't really see eye to eye. It started when I disobeyed her, and look where it got me.

Napailing nalang ako. "Pagpasensyahan mo na ang mommy mo Alexandra, she's just having her episodes." Natawa ako sa sinabi ni daddy, "It's okay dad, medyo nasanay na ako. Though its been years but still, I can manage."

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I was laying down on my bed when my phone beeped. A text message.

From: 0930xxxxxxx

Hey there beautiful :)

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Napataas ang kilay ko, who could this be? 

To: 0930xxxxxxx

Who r u?

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For other people normal lang siguro makatanggap nang ganitong text message but for me, no. I have less than 10 numbers on my contact list for years kaya I find the message--the sender weird. 

From: 0930xxxxxxx

Sabihin nalang natin na ako ang guardian angel mo.

To: 0930xxxxxxx

Dafuk r u saying? How did get my number?

From: 0930xxxxxxx

Na-dial ko lang po, hindi ko naman ine-expect na may magre-reply.

To: 0930xxxxxxx

U think u can fool me? Na-dial? Ano ka teenager na naghahanap ng textmate?

From: 0930xxxxxxx

Maybe.

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I turned my phone off kasi ayaw ko nang patulan yung lokong nanti-trip sakin. 

Maybe its just Andrea pulling a prank on me and I won't give her the satisfaction of laughing if she succeeds in her plans.