It All Started when I was FLUSHED down the TOILET

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~Xanny~

"Simon please come out. I have some kimchi fried rice for ya and a little ramen." Chloe said from the other side of my bedroom door.

She sighed heavily and I knew that she also had been crying.

I stared at the plain white ceiling above me.

Everything was just so plain, dark and somber.

Tears dropped down my cheeks over flowing like a river; it had been three days.

Three days since we lost her.

We lost her and we didn't even get to say goodbye.

The pain was unbearable. I didn't know how to live, it was difficult to carry on.

"Xanny please. You've been in there for so long." She begged but my mind was far away.

Her eyes were so glassy yet so empty.

Her hair lost it's usual glow in front of our eyes.

I watched her die. Nobody could ever recover from that.

I felt so nauseous and heartbroken and just sick to my stomach.

I just didn't know what to do. I was tortured by memories of that day continuously.

They played repeatedly in my mind the entire time and it just hurt so much to think because all that I could think of was her.

I slumped down my door and sobbed, letting all that was left in my heavy heart.

I didn't want to live like this. Not without her.

"Si-Simon, Pl.. please just speak to me." Her voice came out in a whisper.

I couldn't muster the courage to tell can her how I felt, to tell her that I was being ripped apart on the inside.

How could I burden her with such a heavy load?

It would be unfair of me; besides she already had Axel to worry about.
I was broken and scared of carrying on.

I was dead inside. A walking zombie, no light, no life, no strength and no promise of any good.

"Xanny, please." Her voice cracked then I heard her muffled sobs behind me and I also broke down.

This hurt so bad and I needed Chloe right now.

I needed her so bad.

"Snowflake, I don't understand why this happened."

I admitted in between sobs, tears falling rapidly and my voice breaking.

"I dont *sniff* know either*sniff*"

I stood up slowly to unlock the door.

She held her head in between her knees but she looked up at me.

Her face was red and covered in snot and that was when I also noticed Axel who was pale and sitting next to her his shoulders shaking.

Chloe got up and hugged me tight.

"Yeah, Nairobi didn't deserve to die."

Axel burst into a fit of laughter his head thrown back.

Me and Chloe looked at him dumbfounded and a little taken aback.

"Axel, could you please be mindful of this situation?"

He wheezed balancing himself up against the wall in his pajamas.

Chloe rushed to his side clenching her jaw.

"Axel be careful." She hissed through her teeth.

"You're gonna wish you died."I remarked whipping my imaginary Ariana Grande hair back.