It's been a month since we've gone out at parang ganun katagal na din na hindi sya pumapasok sa office. It was always trisha who attended the meetings scheduled for him. Its not that i missed him, ofcourse not. Why would i? Just a bit curious.
"Hi bern," trish suddenly called me to reality.
"Hello trisha, looks like you're quit busy ha?" i ask her trying to get some info.
"Yup sort of. Den is out of the country for his follow up check up."
"check up?" i ask reluctantly.
"you didn't know?" she ask me na nagtataka.
" He had an accident while his in the states. He had a broken leg. The reason why he can still walk is because of the braces that is placed in his leg"she explained while looking at me intently.
That explains kung bakit minsan umiika sya. Ni hindi ko na naramdaman na nagpaalam si trisha
I don't really know what to feel. Gusto kong malaman how he feel. In the first place i knew we are friends na. Friends nga ba?
I was in the middle of looking at some files when my phone rings.
Unknown number.
Hello? Wala akong maisip na puedeng tumawag sa akin galing sa ibang bansa.
"hi bern."
"dennis?" i want to mAke sure di ako nagkakamali.
" i miss you" my heart suddenly beats fast.
" where are you" i dont know if im acting to much.
" us. Just fixing some stuff. Miss me? He ask in his low voice.
" i heard you had an accident, trisha told me" I didnt reply to what he asked me. I want to know the truth.
" I have to go. Something came up! See you soon" and he hangs up the phone.
Ok. What was that?
Ayaw nya ba malaman ko. Ok fine kung ayaw nya di wag.
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I was almost late when i bump someone in the elevator.
" sorry" i said without looking
"late huh? And i suddenly turn to him.
"youre back" i dont know of he feels the happiness in my voice. When suddenly i remember what he did in our last conversation.
I suddenly shut my mouth.
Ayaw nyang malaman ko yung nangyari. I was really obvious, so better not to talk to him. Mukhang d din naman nya ako pinagkakatiwalaan, so i dont think there is is in need to stay friends with him.
“Why you looked pissed?” He ask me.
“Nothing Sir.!” I answered.
“Sir?, di ba napag usapan na natin yan.”salubong ang kilay nyang tanung sa akin.
“You are still my boss, at nandito tayo sa opisina, I dont think its---”He suddenly curse.
“Fuck! Fine, whatever!” and suddenly he leaves me without looking.
Hindi ko alam if ano ang mararamdaman ko, I just felt the pain at hindi ko na din naintindihan yung sinasabi ng assistant ko. I'm just confused and hurt maybe, kasi naman he curse he left me with that word.
“Ma'am?” nagulat akong napatingin kay alex.
Tiningnan ko lamang sya na nagtatanong.
“Mr. Martinez wants to talk to you in his office, he said ASAP mam.”
“Ok, thanks!” sagot ko sabay tayo. I dont know whats in his mind. Inaaway ako tapos ngayon papatawag ako.
“Hi mam, kanina ka pa iniintay, mainit ang ulo” alanganin ngiti ng secretary ni dennis.
I knocked and take a deep breathe before entering his room.
It was my first time to see his office. Manly, yung ang term that best describe it, at tama sya mahilig din sya sa abstract paintings tulad ko.
Then there is this painting that caught my attention, pero hindi pa nagtatagal ang mata ko dun when suddenly may tumkhim sa likod ko.
“Good morning sir!” I ask in an awkward tone.
“PWEDE BA! STOP CALLING ME SIR!!” nagulat ako sa paglakas ng boses nya.
“Im sorry, I didnt mean to shout.” he suddenly had that tone. Yung malungkot, yung parang may kulang .
“What happened dennis?” I didnt know what force me to ask that stupid question.
“I'm not in the mood this past few weeks, hindi ako nakauwi agad kasi I need to undergo few test pa, I miss my girl so much.” and he look at me intently.
“You can have facetime with ms trisha naman di ba?” biro kong tanong sa kanya. Pero hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko. Hindi ko alam if tamang selos ba to, SELOS???aghhh
“Trish?how many times do i have to tell you trish and i are just friends.” Nakakunot noo nyang tanong.
“Ok, fine, bakit mo ako pinatawag?” I try to change the conversation.
“I miss you” as he looked me in the eye.
Alam ko pulang pula ako. How can this man so tactless with his feelings. Grrr
“Where is this conversation leading?” I ask relunctantly.
“Babe I----”
“Babe?my eyes suddenly turn big.
“I mean b-bern...I..” nakatitig ako sa mata nya.
“Sino ka?”hindi ko inalis ang mga mata ko sa kanya. I swear nakita ko ang takot habang tinatanong ko sya. Hindi ko alam pero iba ang pakiramdam ko something is wrong at hindi ko alam if dapat pa ba ako makinig sa mga susunod nyang sasabihin.
He deeply sigh. He looked in me in the eye while ive heard the bomb.
“I'm....denver”sabi nya sabay yuko.
Napanganga ako, no! Nananaginip lang ako, hindi to totoo.
