mattia tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep because of the feeling in his stomach. something telling him to read kairi's diary, right now. after contemplating he just gave into his thoughts and sat up, grabbed the book from his nightstand, and opened it slowly. -
4/22
today i told someone outside of my family about my disease for the first time. he found living with dying at the hospital and started reading it. so i just gave in and told him. but he seemed unfazed, i don't know if it was the wrong choice or not. but he seems like a nice guy so i don't think he'll tell. he doesn't have many friends and he likes to keep to himself. i've actually been very curious about him for awhile, he's always reading books, and i get the feeling that he's struggling with himself. but then when i tried talking to him, he was quiet, i just have to get to know him i guess. he's different from everyone else. i hope we can be closer in the future, and he knows my secret anyways. - kc
5/2
today was great! i took mattia to mcdonald's, oh yeah his name is mattia. we ate chicken nuggets, well i did and i ate some of his. we talked about my death a bit, i told him how i don't wanna be cremated, but my mom is still going to do it. sometimes i just want to get up and hold him. he's still very quiet, but i feel relaxed when i'm around him. - kc
6/4
me and mattia went to the beach. it was so perfect, and school was ending soon so we could go more often. but it was ruined at the end, we were going to kiss! we were sooo close then the police came, fuck 12. anyways i'm making us necklaces with the rocks i found at the beach, mine is going to be green and his is going to be purple. i'll update soon - kc
6/10
genesis is acting weird. she keeps 'warning' me about mattia. i don't know what's going on between them but i hope they resolve it, i love them both and i don't want to choose between them. school is also ending tomorrow and me and mattia planned to go on a trip! new york actually, i've always wanted to go. and maybeeee, just maybeeeeee, mattia will get me pregnant. who knows, i'll update after. or if i get pregnant - kc
6/14
i got railed. in a hotel bed. i didnt get pregnant. and mattia accidentally ate the edibles. rate:10/10. but NOW me and matti are dating. like i kiss him and cuddle him and marry him. andddd he speaks italian. and he speaks so softly, but especially when he speaks italian. i don't even care what he's saying, it's just so comforting hearing him speak.
6/21
gen still hates mattia. like whyyyyy?! did they used to date or something? well no because mattia is gay but i just want to know why? anyways i spent the day with her and it was fun, but i wish alv was there too. - kc
