Once More With Feeling ZAINTSEE AU

Home

*** This chapter is all mature content. I hope it feels in fitting with the story and you guys enjoy it. ***

They went home. Home. It's such a simple word but to Saint it meant so much. It meant safety, it meant warmth and most importantly it meant love. These past few months Saint had felt more at home than he had in a very long time and now the hardest part was over he was looking forward to beginning the rest of his life at home. Getting there was a blur, if you asked him Saint couldn't tell you anything that happened on the way. He doesn't know if he and Zee spoke or if the radio was on, hell he isn't even sure if he walked or was carried.

But now they were here. They were home and Saint knew what he wanted, or more accurately what he needed. He needed Zee, all of Zee. "Are you ok?" Zee asked as he closed the door. "I will be." Saint replied taking off his coat. "Are you hungry or thirsty?" Zee asked following Saint as he walked. "Just... Let me." Saint said holding Zee's hand and taking him to the bedroom. Zee had no clue what Saint needed but he would do what ever it was in a heartbeat.

As soon as the entered the bedroom Saint closed the door behind them, sealing them in their own little universe, just for a while. He would let the world back in, in a little while, but for now he needed it to just be just the two of them. He reached his arms around Zee's neck and kissed him, light as a feather, on his lips. Zee's eyes fluttered shut at the kiss and for a moment Saint just looked at him.

"Thank you." Saint whispered against Zee's lips before pressing another barely there kiss to his lips, pulling their bodies closer. Zee blinked his eyes open. "Why are you thanking me?" He asked looping his arms around Saint's waist. "Because..." Saint said moving his lips to Zee's neck. "I couldn't have survived this nightmare without you." He continued, placing a tender kiss on Zee's neck. "You brought me back to life Zee." He whispered in Zee's ear and smiled as the man he loved shivered with desire.

"You don't have to thank me Saint." Zee said sounding effected by Saint's kisses. "Everything I did, I did because I love you. You did all the hard work yourself." He said hugging Saint close. Saint continued kissing Zee's neck as he unbuttoned Zee's shirt. "Show me Zee." He said kissing down to his pecs. "Show me how much you love me." He said, hands roaming across Zee's chest and nipples.

Zee opened his eyes in surprise, trying to find the right words but he couldn't. Nothing seemed enough so he ended up just gaping like a fish at Saint. "I'm not asking again." Saint said removing Zee's shirts and kissing him deeply. He took Zee's hands and guided them to his shirt buttons and Zee finally woke up and began helping Saint remove his shirt. "Saint..." Zee whispered as Saint moved away to remove his shirt and began undoing his pants. "I love you so much." Zee said making Saint look up at him.

"I need more than words Zee." Saint said kissing him forcefully but Zee pulled away. "And I am willing to show you but I need to know that this isn't just because you feel greatful or like you owe me bec..." he began and Saint slammed his hand over Zee's mouth. "This is about me Zee, me and what I want. No what I need. So, if you want me too then please stop talking and start kissing me." He said with a small smile, he was so sure Zee wanted this too but now he was starting to worry.

He felt Zee smile behind his hand then he kissed Saint's palm and pushed away his hand to claim his lips. Zee kissed him so gently like he was afraid Saint was going to break but every single kiss was filled with so much emotion it was like Zee was screaming how much he loved Saint and it made Saint want to cry happy tears. Zee lay Saint down on the bed and finished removing both of their clothes before laying down beside Saint, facing him and pulling him close into a hug.

"What ever happens now, I love you." Zee whispered. "If you want more, I'll love you. If you decide you want to stop, I'll love you. What ever happens I will love you and nothing will ever change that." Zee said rubbing his nose against Saint's. With that a tear did slide down Saint's cheek. "And that's why I'm here now. Because I trust you. I love you and I trust you with all of me, body, heart and soul." Saint replied kissing Zee again.

It was so slow, the way they moved and touched. It was the epitome of making love, Saint felt cherished in a way he never imagined possible. Zee mapped his body with his hands and mouth finding every spot that made him giggle or moan and continued touching and kissing them until Saint was a mess. Saint tried to reciprocate but Zee pulled a face and pleaded saying he was having fun and wanted to continue if Saint would allow. For all of the kissing and touching Zee stayed carefully away from any intimate area's.

Saint was leaking against his stomach and Zee hadn't been near his dick or hole, he began to worry he was going to cum before Zee even touched him. "Zee please." Saint begged moving his hands to Zee's chest and kissing him while climbing on top of him. Saint was happy to see that Zee was just as hard as he was, at least he knew Zee was as effected as he was. "Where's the lube and condoms?" Saint asked breathlessly.

"In the drawer but Saint..." Zee said as Saint immediately reached for the drawer but stilled hearing hesitation in Zee's voice. "Could we... I mean can you..." Saint was puzzled, Zee was still clearly aroused and from the way he was stroking Saint's thighs as he spoke it seemed like he wanted to continue, so Saint had no clue what he was about to say. "Canyoumakelovetomeforourfirstime" Zee finally rushed out in a single breath.

It took Saint a moment to untangle what Zee had said. "You want me to..." Saint said carefully and Zee bit his lip, a drop of precum rolling down his veiny erection. If that was what Zee wanted Saint would try. He hadn't topped before and he was scared, what if he hurt Zee... "I trust you Saint and I want to give myself to you..." Zee said his cheeks flushing red at his words. "Uhh I sound like a blushing virgin maiden." He said avoiding Saint's gaze. "No Zee I really love that, I really love you." He said leaning down to kiss Zee. "Plus this way its like both of our first times." He said blushing himself.

They continued and Saint was so careful with Zee. More careful than he'd ever been with any of his previous partners. By the time Saint slipped in his first finger Zee was begging. Saint had spent an eternity circling his hole and apply various amounts of pressure without actually penetrating him. Then Saint took his time using just one finger, coaxing Zee to relax for him with sweet words and kisses placed on Zee's thighs. When he added his second finger Zee moaned so loud Saint felt the bed move from the rumble and when he crooked his fingers and found that special bundle of nerves inside of Zee, his moan must have been heard in the whole neighbourhood.

Saint was so turned on he could barely breathe. There was only so much begging he could take from Zee before he was rolling on the condom and lining himself up. "Oh fuck please Saint. Please..." Zee begged as Saint rubbed the tip against Zee's hole. "Zee, I love you so much." Saint whispered as he slowly pushed in. Once he got the head inside he paused, it was almost too much.

They were connected in a way that Saint had never been connected to anyone in his entire life and the fact that was a perfect metaphor for their entire relationship made him shake. A tear rolled down his cheek as he whispered "I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you..." like a mantra. Zee reached up to wipe his tears. "Saint I love you so much. Love isn't big enough for what I feel for you." He said tears filling his eyes.

They made love slowly and tenderly as they shared languid kisses. Nothing had ever felt like this before, so perfect they both felt it down to their bones. There was no rush just a beautiful give and take that made time irrelevant. They came with soft breathy moans before collapsing in each others arms. "That was so perfect..." Zee whispered into Saint's hair as Saint snuggled into his chest. "Mmm..." Saint whispered feeling completely blissed out. "Are you ok my love?" Zee asked kissing the top of Saint's head. "Of course I am," he said tracing lazy circles on Zee's chest. "I'm home."