Once More With Feeling ZAINTSEE AU

Raining

The past few days had been amazing. So amazing that Saint had almost forgotten the reason Zee had arranged the getaway in the first place, almost. But now they were checked out and driving back to reality Saint's stomach began doing flips. PTSD was such a bitch, one second Saint would be thinking about the up coming case the next his mind would flash back to that night and he could smell the alcohol on Matt's breath and feel his grubby hands pawing at his flesh. Saint shook his head to clear his thoughts for what must have been the hundredth time this hour and looked over at Zee's handsome face, trying to focus on how much he loved the man driving him home.

They had one day before the case and Saint was a ball of nervous energy as they stopped for lunch in a cafe. "So what time is the solicitor coming?" Zee asked as he tucked into his salad. "3pm..." Saint replied, tapping his foot. "I'm so worried Zee." He admitted. Zee took Saint's hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. "You're doing so well Saint, you're so strong and I will be by your side the whole time I swear." Saint smiled but it didn't reach his eyes. "I love you Zee." He said "I love you so much Saint and we will get through together I promise."

They finished lunch and continued the drive home. They arrived back around 1.30pm which gave them plenty of time to unpack and have a drink. "Or we could just head to bed and pretend nothing is happening" Saint's mind unhelpfully provided. Saint wasn't trying to turn into one of those guys who was horny all the time but he had energy to expend and no where to really expend it plus escapism was better than dealing with reality. But then again they were in the real world now so maybe Zee wouldn't even be interested in that here...

By the time Saint had finished his internal conversation Zee had started their washing and made him a cup of tea. "Are you ok Saint?" Zee asked handing him his tea. "I don't want to do this. I want to run away with you and Lee and Ma and never look back." He burst out. Zee was immediately sat next to him pulling him into a hug. "But do you still want me now were back in the real world?" Saint asked as tears began to fall. "The spa felt like a dream but now we're back and I'm just adding stress to your life." Saint said openly crying.

"Saint," Zee said hugging him tighter "even if we changed our minds about dating, which I have not, do you really think I could live without you? Before the spa you were my best friend and even if the world ends that won't change. The fact I want to kiss you all the time is just a new layer to how much I love you, please don't doubt me." He whispered. Saint tried to melt into Zee's hug, everything felt warm and safe there. "I'm sorry Zee." Saint said with a sniffle. "I don't doubt you, I'm just so scared about tomorrow and even just talking about it today... I'mso weak." he admitted.

"Saint, do you trust me?" Zee asked. "You know I do!" Saint replied "Then trust me when I say you can do this. You're so strong and I know for certain that you'll get through this." Zee said tilting Saint's chin up and wiping away his tears. "I love you." Zee finished before kissing Saint's cheek. "I love you too." Saint said hugging back into Zee's arms. After a little while they sat and drank there tea and gave Nira a call to let her know they were home. By the time they'd finished the call the solicitor was knocking on the door.

They sat around the table and discussed the up coming case. Saint's solicitor Harriet was convince that it would be a slam dunk. They had evidence against Matt including the photo's and one of Matt's exes had come forward to say that Matt had beaten him during their relationship which he had reported to the police so he had previous form for the crime against Saint. She tried her best to reassure them that things would go smoothly. Saint would be giving evidence via video in a room in the same court as Matt but in a completely different area.

Zee would be allowed to come with Saint to court but wouldn't be allowed in to the room while he gave evidence but Harriet assured him that she would be by his side the entire time. Matt would be able to see Saint but Saint would only be able to hear the other solicitor or the judge. They talked over every possible question that could be asked and Harriet advised Saint to just tell the truth and he would be fine. She reminded him that he was the victim in this case not the defendant so he had absolutely nothing to worry about.

She left around 5.30pm saying she would meet them at court at 10am the next day. Once she had gone Zee asked Saint to pick what ever take away he wanted for dinner and they could snuggle on the couch while they ate. Saint thanked his luck stars for getting to have Zee in his life once again. He ordered them a Chinese take away while Zee got the plates and chopsticks ready. As they sat cuddled up on the sofa eating their food and watching Labyrinth for the millionth time Saint imagined of this was what life would be like for him and Zee in the future. He imagined Lee sitting between them singing loudly to Dance Magic Dance and his heart swelled with warmth.

"It's nice seeing you smile." Zee said, he'd been paying more attention to Saint than the movie. "It's because I've got you and Lee." Saint said smiling again. "I was just imagining us having family movie nights together." He finished. Zee smiled right along with him. "We should make that part of the family routine. Friday night is family movie night." He replied.  "Then when Lee is asleep it's grown up snuggle on the sofa time." He said kissing Saint's cheek. "Hmm..." replied Saint "That sounds perfect."