Once More With Feeling ZAINTSEE AU

Nightmares

Zee had made sure Saint was comfortable in his bed then headed down to sleep in Lee's room. He didn't want to be too far away from Saint in case he needed him during the night for his meds. Despite being really tired Zee struggled to fall asleep, his mind racing with what had happened. He tossed and turned teying to get comfortable. He was too hot so he kicked off the covers and took of his tshirt but still fet uncomfortable.He knew there was no way he could have prevented what happened he still felt like he should have done more to warn Saint about what Matt was like. He'd told Saint he thought he was dangerous but Saint had told him it was just Matt's gruff exterior and that he could handle himself anyway. What he hadn't told Saint was that after they were first introduced Matt had tried to warn him off from Saint saying it was obvious something was going on between them. He'd said if he found out something had happened between Saint and Zee he'd kill them.

He kept beating himself up for telling himself they were just words. That Matt was just puffing his chest because he was threatened by how close he and Saint were. Not many people understood their love but they never cared. But maybe if he'd told Saint none of this would have happened. He kept going round and round with his thoughts until he heard Saint screaming. He ran out of Lee's room and into his own, he found Saint thrashing about on the bed, crying and lashing out. "Zee... Please help me." Saint called out in his dreams. Zee sat on the bed without touching Saint and tried to sooth him. "Saint, I'm here. Can you wake up for me?" Zee said, feeling his heart breaking. Saint continued thrashing and crying so Zee tried again but louder this time. "Please Saint, it's Zee, your safe now. Please wake up." It worked this time, Saint sat up desperately looking around him.

When he saw Zee he dived into his arms still crying. "Im sorry Zee, I'm so sorry." He said into Zee's chest, hugging him tightly. "Please stop apologising! You have nothing to say sorry for." Zee said rubbing cirlcles on Saint's back. "I told you I want to be here for you, however and whenever you need me, and I meant it." He hoped Saint knew he was being genuine with his words. The longer they hugged the more Saint relaxed but he was still scared to go to back to sleep. He sat up and noticed Zee was topless which meant he'd been crying on to Zee's bare chest. Saint should have been at least a little embarrassed but all he thought about was safe he felt wrapped in Zee's strong arms.

"You feeling a little better now?" Zee asked gently wiping away Saint's tears. Saint nodded "I was going to say sorry again for waking you up but I know you want me to stop so instead I'm going to say thank you. Thank for always being there when I need you." Saint not looking at Zee's face. "I'll always be there for you Saint. Just like you're always there for me. Now do you need nore tablets or a drink of anything before we go back to sleep?" He asked. Saint looked up that he didn't want Zee to leave but he didn't know how to ask him stay. "Uhhh, could I have a drink of water please?" He asked. At least this way would be coming back into the room so he'd have a chance to find the courage to ask him.

Zee went and got the water from the kitchen and brought it to Saint. When he returned he noticed Saint was a little off. He thought it might be because he was worried about having more nightmares so he decided to offer to sleep on the floor so he could hear him amd immediately help. Saint agreed with a smile and Zee was happy he'd worked out what Saint wanted. "Ok I'll go grab the blanket and pillow and I'll sleep right here on the floor." He said standing up to leave. "Wait..." Saint said trying to be brave. "Just sleep on the bed. It's huge anyway and I'd feel terrible if you threw your back out because of me." He said trying to sound calm and not like the baby he felt like he was being. "Or you can sleep on the floor if you'd be more comfortable. I mean it's up to you." He finished feeling his cheeks heat up.

Zee could tell how much it had taken for Saint to ask him this so he decided to not make a big deal out of it. "If you're sure you don't mind. I was just thinking how dirty this floor so that would be great." Saint just nodded and lay down waiting for Zee to climb in next to him. Zee turned the light off and climbed into bed. Being in the dark made Saint feel more afraid but braver at the same time. "Can we hug til I fall asleep? I'm feeling scared still" He asked in a whisper the held his breath waiting for Zee's answer. All Zee said was "Of course." Then scooted closer to Saint. Saint rolled over and snuggled in to Zee while Zee wrapped his arms around Saint.

At first Saint's heart beat went a little crazy. Him and Zee had hugged thousands of times before but never when they were laying down or when they both weren't fully clothed. But once Zee started rubbing his back Saint just breahed in Zee's familiar smell and let his heart beat lull him back to sleep. Zee felt weird at first, he hadn't hugged anyone like this since Kara. But it was Saint so after the first few seconds it felt like the most natural thing in the world. Zee even felt a little guilty this was supposed to be for Saint but he was enjoying the closeness as much as he probably was. Saint twitched in his sleep so Zee hugged him tighter and kissed his head "It's alright." He told Saint and he almost immediately relaxed. Zee kissed his head once more then fell asleep himself.