Once More With Feeling ZAINTSEE AU

Get Away

Things continued going really well inside their little home. The kissing continued but never went futher, Saint felt bad for always stopping but Zee was completely understanding that Saint simply wasn't ready to go any futher. He kept on reassuring Saint that he was completely fine with Saint setting the pace for the shift in their relationship. He did however spend a bit more time in the shower to deal with anything that arouse from their amazing make out sessions.

Lee was happy that Uncle Bunny was staying for so long and would periodically ask him to never leave which never failed to make Saint and Zee feel warm and fuzzy. Saint could admit that he spoiled the boy but he couldn't help how much he adored him and he deserved to be spoiled from time to time. Their lives slowly returned to some form of normality, Zee's clients began coming back around, Saint was writing again and feeling more inspired than he had in a long time. They got in to a perfect routine with school runs and family time and it felt so good.

Saint carried on with his counselling and was dealing with things as best he could but he couldn't lie that the thought of the court case still terrified him. He'd been appointed a solicitor to offer advice and support which he was grateful for but he'd much rather not have to deal with it full stop. He knew the likelihood of Matt being found innocent was low but that didn't stop the nightmares about Matt being released and hurting him again. Saint thanked God he had Zee holding him and calming him down when these nightmares struck.

As the case got closer Saint's anxiety got worse to the point he had to take one of the tablets his doctor prescribed. There were 3 days to go before the case when Nana Nini stepped in and decided to take Lee for a week. Saint was equal parts relieved that he didn't have to hide how badly it was affecting him and worried because Lee was such a fun distraction he wasn't sure how he'd cope with out him. Saint had met his deadline and submitted his first version of his book to the editors, so he wouldn't have that to distract him either.

Just when Saint was really beginning to panic Zee anounced that they were having a well deserved break. He'd even packed their cases while he was packing for Lee. Saint wanted to be giddy and part of him was, but another part was concerned for a number of reasons. What if Zee wanted to take their relationship futher? What if some how Matt escaped, found out where they were and came to get him? What if HE decided he wanted to take their relationship futher? It was driving him insane. Zee drove them to their destination and Saint was on pins the entire time teying to work out where they were going without asking because he liked surprises but this one was probably going to kill him.

When they pulled up to a church, Saint's jaw hit the floor. Of all the places he'd gone through in his mind a church wasn't even close to any of his guesses. Once they parked up he noticed the sign over the door "Clearwater Spa" It was 4pm when they checked in and were shown to their room. Well rooms. Once the lady who had led them up left Saint finally spoke "Why do we have 2 rooms? Are they homophobic or something?" He said pacing angrily. Zee just smiled following him and took his hands. "They aren't homophobic at all they even asked if we wanted the special couples room as it was available because its off peak but I said no. I didn't want you to feel any pressure while you were here so..." Zee said gesturing at the beautiful connected double rooms.

After a moment Saint spoke. "Who said anything about feeling pressured?" He said his voice raising an octave or two, now he felt dumb for ever thinking this perfect man would ever ask for anything Saint didn't want to give. Zee smiled again. "No one did love, I just wanted you to be able to unwind and feel safe, that's all." He said putting his arms out for a hug. Of course Saint walked straight into Zee's arms and held him tight. "Were my thoughts loud again? You know it's not fair that you read my mind and actually mention it. I read yours all the time but I keep it to myself!" Saint said blushing slightly.

"Come on then clever clogs, what am I thinking?" Zee said with a laugh. "You're thinking about this..." Saint said before kissing Zee and walking him backwards until his legs hit the bed. He pushed Zee gently until he was sitting on the bed then climbed into his lap. "I'm sorry I'm such a mess." Saint said resting his forehead on Zee's. "That's not true. You are dealing with so much and still being your amazing strong self. I just wanted to make sure I'm doing everything I can to support you." Zee said gently kissing Saint. "I don't deserve you..." Saint whispered before diving in for more kisses.

Just as things were getting really fun Saint's stomach rumbled loudly making Zee giggle. "Hmmm let's get food before you eat me!" Zee said not realising the double meaning that sentence could have. Saint didn't miss it though and almost fell off the bed laughing especially when Zee finally realised how his words could have been taken and turned a lovely shade of crimson. "Do you want food or not?" Zee said trying to sound stern but still blushing furiously. Saint managed to stop laughing his ass off long enough to say "Yes please." While hiding the huge smile he couldn't keep off his face. "Ok, let's freshen up then had down to the restaurant. I'll go first." Zee said kissing Saint's cheek then scurrying off to the bathroom with his overnight bag.