What Does Death Feel Like?

𝕋𝕨𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕪𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕖

"Okay Yoongi, that is the end of today's session. Do you have anymore questions you want to ask me?" Hoseok asked, looking straight into Yoongi's eyes as he blushed, nodding.

"Have you ever been in love before?" Yoongi asked, wondering if Hoseok has been in love, real, true love.

(You may have already seen this question before, don't forget it)

"I don't think I've been in love before, sure I've had lovers but I've never been in love. . . Have you?" Hoseok asked, Yoongi shaking his head.

"I've never been in love, nor had a lover before." Yoongi said, showing a small smile. Hoseok's eyes widened, looking surprised.

How could somebody this perfect not have had a lover before. . . why?

"Really? I thought you have had a lover before." Hoseok said, looking into Yoongi's cat-shaped eyes. Whenever he looks into them, he feels a sense of warmth and comfort. As if nothing else but his eyes mattered in that split moment, that split instant of eye-contact.

"No, I wanted to talk to my sister about all of my 'crushes' and boyfriends and giggle about that kinda stuff. But she got killed when we were, yeah, so I didn't get to have that. . ." Yoongi said, looking down and playing with his hoodie.

Hoseok grabbed his hand, Yoongi looking up into his handsome, caramel face with empathetic, loving eyes. He softly smiled as Hoseok interlocked their fingers.

Is this what love feels like? I've never had this emotion before. . . Hoseok thought to himself as he showed his heart-shaped smile towards Yoongi.

The both of the two have never felt an ounce of true love, the beautiful flame that makes people in this world so happy yet terrified. The both of them didn't know what this feeling was at the time, sexual attraction? A crush? Or love?

They didn't know, but they both wanted this feeling, this amazing heart-warming feeling to stay with them forever.

This warm feeling was amazing, they both felt protected next to eachother, talking to eachother, being with eachother. It felt so. . . real. It felt as if it was the only true thing in Yoongi's head, the only thing he could accept in his life.

The only thing that went right. . .

Hoseok was the only good thing in his life, isn't he?

Why was Yoongi's life like this? It's like the world doesn't give a fuck about him in any way, shape or form. Yoongi's just there, taking in everything.

It hurts so much, knowing that no matter what you do, you'll always let everybody around you down. Knowing that you tried your best but nobody will accept it. Knowing that nobody gave two fucks about you at all in any way, shape or form.

So what was the point? What will happen through our lifetimes that'll make us happy? What will happen after Death? Will anybody remember us? What is the point?

Why is it that when you get older you think more about Death?