My Name Is Payton

Chapter Nineteen - Surviving, Breaking & Loving

Chapter Nineteen - Surviving, Breaking & Loving

'I'm a survivor,

I'm not gonna give up,

I'm not gonna stop, 

I'm gonna work harder, 

I'm a survivor,

I'm gonna make it,

I'm a survivor,

Keep on surviving'

 And that is exactly what I'll do. I'll survive. Ok, Emily, I seriously take back what I said in 6th grade that love is easy. It is not.

 ~

It was getting easier, but only by a little. I still love Tyler. And Finn.

It hurt to know that I was hated by two of the most popular boys. I loved them, heck I think I still love them. But the question that is going through my mind day and night is, who do I love more?

I don't think that looks is even a percentage in it, they look identical. But personality is probably 80% and if they love me is the rest. 20%.

~

"That's it, stop moping around." Emily yelled when we got to school. I leaned against a random locker and crossed my arms and huffed.

"I am not moping around." 

"Oh yes you are." Issy joined in. This was unfair, it was 2 against 1. Where's Jade when I need her?

"She just needs some time." Jade spoke up.  Ah, there she is. I nodded.

"She's had time." Emily grumbled.

"She's just moping around." Issy mumbled. They were talking about me as if I wasn't standing there.

"No, I'm not."

"Yes you are."

"No she isn't." That was Jade.

"Yes she is."

"No I'm not."

"What are you ladies arguing about?" I whipped my head around so fast, I had whiplash. Standing there, was Tyler. And right behind him was Finn. They both had their eyes on me as I gulped loudly. 

"Nothing." Issy said with a raised eyebrow. She had her hand on her hip sassily. 

"W-what are you doing here?" By here, I meant talking to us. I don't know why I felt so nervous talking to him.

"That's my locker." He shrugged, jerking his head towards the locker I was leaning on. 

"Oh." I stumbled off the locker and scurried closer to Issy and Emily and Jade, basically hiding behind them. I mentally scolded myself for acting so lame in front of him.

He opened the locker and got out all of his books, he slammed it shut loudly. He glimpsed at me but only for a mere second, he looked at Jade next to me then walked away with his brother.

I let out a breath I didn't realise I was holding.

I realised that I had Media later today and I was his partner. Oh no.

"Why were you scared of him?" Emily asked quietly as we walked to Maths.

I shrugged even though I knew the answer.

"You shouldn't be, you're pretty, smart and really popular. You could get any guy so why are you so hung up on the Davies' brothers?"

"Everyone wanted me for something bad, like s*x...or popularity but Finn and Tyler liked me for me."