I Won't Say It (T'Challa Udaku)

Chapter 23

T'Challa got us a room at the hotel across the street from the hospital. It's been four days and Pops still hasn't woken up I sat with him every day, talking to him, or playing his favorite oldies from Motown. Satan and his wife have not made another appearance since that first day but if they did, they waited until I wasn't there. I was sitting on the couch channel surfing when T'Challa came out the bathroom on the phone. I was happy he was here, but I didn't know how much longer he could stay, I mean he did have a whole country to run. He hung up and came and sat next to me

"I know the past few days have been hectic, but I have to leave tomorrow."

"I know it's ok I'm happy you came at all."

"I will always come when you need me." He said then pressed a kiss to my lips

"How are you feeling?" He asked I shrugged

"After seeing your parents, talk to me."

"I don't know I was angry but now I just don't really care," I said not really wanting to talk about it, he stared at me I knew he could tell I wasn't telling the truth

"I have to tell you something about your grandfather."

"Ok." I said then he pressed on his kimoyo beads and a picture of my pops in his 20s came up

"How did you get this?"

"I was going through some of my father's old files and found this."

"What does this mean? Does he have a record?"

"No, your grandfather was or maybe still is a war dog for Wakanda."

"What no he can't be, that means he would have to be fr- "

"From Wakanda." He finished

"Yeah that's not right, he was born in the Franklin Terrace projects in Baltimore. My nana Ororo was born in Kenya."

"And your grandfather is Wakandan." He said again I sat there and processed what he said

"He would have told me," I said shaking my head then I thought about what James said. When they got pops out the car, he kept saying something about a case

"You think this is why he was attacked?"

"It's a possibility but we won't know until he wakes." He said and I sat there processing what he just told me then I got up

"I need a drink." I said walking over to the mini bar

After I took a couple of shots of tequila my brain was any clearer, I was feeling all of these thoughts and still dealing with emotions from seeing my parents. I didn't know how to handle all of this at once. So I walked over to T'Challa and sat in his lap and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me back, I sat back and pulled off his shirt then I started kissing his neck

"Ayesha this won't solve anything." He said and I looked at him

"I know." I said then kissed him again he stood up and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he walked us towards the bed.

"How did I not see this earlier?" T'Challa asked as he held up my leg with the ankle monitor

"I think there are a lot more appealing parts of my body than that." I told him trying to pull away, but he held on

"You really are a criminal." He said I laughed and pulled my leg out his grip and kicked him lightly. He chuckled and caught my ankle again and pressed a kiss to it I felt a shiver run down my spine no man has ever made me feel this way. He just knew the right way to touch me, and when he held me it felt like his arms were made for me. He laid on top of me and kissed me softly

"I will talk to Ross." He said running his fingers through my hair

"No." I told him

"Why not?"

"Well for one I don't want him to know about us." I said and he rolled off me and laid on his side looking at me

"What part of me asking him to pardon you would make it seem like we are together?"

"The fact that you're asking. You haven't asked that for none of my other teammates, and besides we're not together."

"we're not?" He asked raising an eyebrow

"No." I said

"What would you call this then?"

"Two adults having sex, I mean let's be real for a second what can actually come of this?"

"A life for us. A future together where you would be happy because I would spend every day making that happen."

"So, what I move to Wakanda then what? I've already told you I can't be a queen!"

"I'm not forcing any of that on you, I'm asking you to let me in. I want you to trust me I'm putting my whole heart out there for you, just take a change and take it."

I got off the bed and started putting my clothes back on I don't like the direction this conversation was going. He got up and pulled on his boxers

"Stop running and talk to me."

"what do you want me to say? I've never done this before; I'm feeling things I've never felt before and I don't know how to process it. Running has always been my security blanket keeping my distance is how I live so I don't have to face that pain I felt at the hospital."

"I'm not you're parents! And you cannot keep carrying that pain with you it will only hurt you in the long run."

"Says the man who went on a witch hunt to find his father's killer."

"And you reminded me that, wasn't the way." He said cupping my cheeks I tried to pull away, but he wouldn't let me

"Look at me." He said and I looked down

"Look at me Ayesha." He said and I looked into his eyes

"I love you," He said

I looked at him in shock it had only been three months since we met, I tried to clear my head did I love him? I'm not sure but I didn't want to hurt him. There was a knock at the door thank God. I pulled away and walked over to the door and it was my uncle

"Hey.'

Are you alright?"

"Yeah what's up?" I asked glancing back in the room

"Hospital just called he's awake."

"We can see him?"

"Yeah come on." He said and I went back into the bedroom to see T'Challa pulling on his shirt

"I have to go," I said, and he shook his head

"Is that all you have to say."

"Look I'm sorry but I can't do this right now."

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