Little Miss Perfect ✔~ trixya

Chapter 32: This Is Our Time

Trixie

"You may be seated. I would now like to bring to the microphone, your valedictorian, Trixie Mattel." Our principal says.

I walk up to the front of the stage nervously, searching for Katya's eyes in the crowd for support.
Our class is quite small, so why does it seem like there are so many students here?

Finally I find her, she gives me and encouraging smile and a nod, and I release a breath that I didn't know I was holding. I run a hand through my large curls before I start talking.

"Good evening. On behalf of the senior class, I'd like to begin with thanking the staff of Liberty High School. Thank you for your support and hard work.
I know alot about hard work, but I know alot of people here assume that I gained this title easily. For most here, I'm sure it was no surprise that I became valedictorian. After all, I've been your student body president, I've been head cheerleader, I've been a mathlete, and I've been a straight A student. For as long as I've been alive, I've been taught that being on top was all that mattered, and so I chose to work my ass off to be on top in every way I could. I truly did anything I could to be perfect." I speak clearly into the microphone.

"Are you also on top in bed, dyke?" I hear a voice yell out from the audience, and I see most of my classmates laugh.

"You know what? I had a whole speech prepared, but fuck that. Let's talk about this school and this town honestly for a minute. Let's truly talk about it." I say angrily and a gasp fills the room.

"This school is called Liberty High. Liberty. Can you imagine a more unfitting name for the school environment we have here? No one here is free. No one is free to be who they want to be, instead we all fight to be what we're told to be. This town is a toxic rumor mill, and it is only hurting everyone here. But yeah, I'm gay. What about it?"

The room is silent, so silent you can hear a pin drop.

"We are on the brink of adulthood, when we leave this place, reality is gonna hit us and the attitude of the people here, won't cut it.
I lived my life so far trying to be perfect, hiding away who I was because I was so scared of how this town would react. But no one can live their life that way. I won't regret how I lived because I can't go back in time and change it anyways. But I refuse to hide out of fear any longer. This is when we get to say that our life is ours. This moment is when we choose who we want to be for the future. We only get a short time on earth, and I'm gonna use mine well.
I still chose the path I chose, but now I'm chosing to change direction because I have found a piece of heaven on earth. I've known who I was all my life, but I suppressed it. Maybe I didn't have a choice, at the time, but at least I managed to keep that part of me alive for long enough for someone to rescue me. You can leave this place and follow in the muddy footprints of your parents, but I wanna feel that I'm alive. I wanna live life knowing that me being me is good enough. I wanna live life knowing that I did everything to use my time on earth well. As naive as it may sound, I wanna be happy, I wanna be strong and I wanna free. I am finally here, completely and honestly, here in front of all you. And I finally realize that my life is mine and only mine.
None of you get to control it anymore. None of you get to tell me that who I am is wrong. I'll find my heaven with my girlfriend whom I love more than anything in the world. I don't need whatever definition of heaven you have. You can chose to shame me for being who I am, or you can look inside yourself to figure out if the person you are is who you truly want to be.
It's your choice. That's the point of all of this. This is our time to make our choices. Who do you wanna be?
If someone had asked me that question at the beginning of the year, I'd probably say that I wanted to be perfect. But if you ask me now then the simple answer is; me. I want to be me. As long as I am myself, I'll be happy and I'll be proud. As Katya once told me, be yourself, and if no one likes that; change. That doesn't mean changing something like your sexuality. But if you act like an asshole and everyone knows that about you, you might wanna do something about it. So, make your choice, who do you wanna be?
Thank you, and congratulations on graduating." I say as I leave the stage entirely instead of sitting down on my assigned seat, smirking as I see the shocked people around me.

A couple long seconds pass before Katya, her family, Courtney, Adore, Tatianna, Farrah, and my mom start cheering, and to my surprise a large part of the student body and their families join in afterwards. Courtney takes my hand as I pass her, giving it a squeeze before I walk to an empty seat, a sense of pride filling my entire body.

I did it.
I actually did it.