Little Miss Perfect ✔~ trixya

Chapter 20: A Trip Into My Garden

Trixie

The tension is high, the room feeling smaller and hotter by the minute.
We've done all the normal activities. We talked for a bit, ordered pizza and ate, watched a movie. But now the movie is over, and the temperature in the room is rising. In my mind I can tell her what to do. I can tell her my deepest desires. I can tell her to make the first move because I know I'm too nervous to make it myself.

Katya, please kiss me softly and set me free. Pull me in and touch me like I've been desperate for you to do for so long. I can't control my feelings today, the change in me is clear, so please see it. I've been waiting for this, but I can't find the words to tell you. You're right beside me, but I need you closer then that tonight. I know I've been holding back, it's been hard for me to leave behind my old beliefs, but I know that tonight is our night. Tonight we can open our hearts to eachother. Tonight we can create our own paradise, so please take me there. I trust you like no one else, with you I feel complete safety.

Her lips finally find mine as I lead her down to lay on my bed, baby pink walls and pure white curtains surrounding us. Her hands travel cautiously, even tho all I want is for her to throw caution to the wind. All I want is for her to take control and devour me. I can see the lust sparkling in her eyes. I know she's holding herself back, and I'm silently begging her to let herself go.

No words should be needed for this moment. I can see it in her eyes that she already knows what I've been implying all week. My heart is pounding in my chest, and I know she feels it too. I know she wants this just as much as I do. 

Katya, before the sun rises, before the night ends, before the moonlight leaves us, please give me your love. I've been saving this for someone like you. 

I've never felt like this before, and this continuous addictive feeling scares me. But as long as it's her holding me tight, as long as it's her hands touching me, I'll still find safety. I know she's someone who'll hold my hand if I get scared. Someone who will wait without question if I ask her to. Someone who will slow down if I need her too. I would trust her with my life.

She kisses her way down to my neck like she has done so many times before. Soon she'll pull away unless she's somehow heard my silent prayer. I know her, I know when her desire gets too much and she has to stop completely if we aren't going to continue. I have to tell her. No matter how frightening and embarrassing it is, I have to tell her to keep going.

"Katya, don't stop. Mhmm.. please." I moan as she sucks on the sweet spot of my neck. She pulls back with wide eyes, looking deeply into my eyes.

"Trix, are you sure? We don't have to, really.. I don't want you to feel pressured or anything." Katya says, clearly scared that I'm doing something I'm not ready for. But I am ready, I've never been more ready for anything in all my life.

"I'm sure, please.. I need you." I speak softly, a blush covering my cheeks. 

She jumps into action then, her hands pulling off my clothes until I am layed bare before her. Her eyes roam my form, caressing every curve of my body. Pleasure takes over as her hands explore me, her lips sucking and biting, surely leaving marks, painting my skin with brilliant color. I undress her aswell, marveling at the toned, strong muscles I uncover as her body is revealed to me. 

"You are so beautiful.. So unbelievably pretty, you don't even know." She whispers as her mouth travels down my abdomen, closer and closer to where I need her most. 

If I get bound for hell for these sins, then I will take that punishment happily. I refuse to pray for forgivess for loving someone with all that I am.
I refuse to accept that loving someone like Katya is a sin.