Access Denied [J. JK FF : Completed✔]

61. Your name

Lyra's POV :-

Shifting around the bed, I think the day through. It was not productive, not exciting- I wasn't even told what was the new plan for Minjoon. But I hoped that trying to think of every detail would somehow tire my brain out and make me sleep.

Groaning to myself in frustration I sit up and sigh. Should I go out and walk on the hallway? Maybe that will help me sleep? Bored out of my mind, I get off the bed and stand up.

I didn't take much time to recover, credits to my strong immune system. I do have a slight cold but it's nothing to bad. My shoulder is healing, overall I'll be good as new in a few days according to Minji and Sunmi.

Slowly opening the door, I look around the hallway. Ahead of me on the right side was a pretty big window. I decide to walk and see the outside view at night.

Walking ahead, I know Jungkook's room falls on the way. And my mind starts to wonder...

What is he doing right now? Is he asleep? Is he awake like me?

I stop outside the door when I hear music coming from inside. The melody touches something in me and I can't help but stand there and listen to it. Curiosity gets the best of me when I hear his muffled voice. Slowly and silently, twisting the knob, I open the door, just a little bit to peak.

There he was, sitting with a piano being played by his fingers, a wine bottle sitting by him and him singing softly.

[A/N : Play decalcomania right now kids uwu]

"When I see you smile in the screen
You're good at everything
You're just perfect
Feels like I've never been you

Do you even see me?
Do you know who I am?
Or how do I look now?
You don't like me like that."

He pauses, but the words do something to me. A chill races down my spine, as I contemplate his words and the pain in his voice. You can tell he is tipsy and yet his words sound so....so....sad.

"Come and tell me so much, beautiful heart
Oh I'm gonna listen to you.
Please.

All the numbers too big
Can't get out of your game
Oh I want to paint it like you.
Please."

Anxiety roars through my body as I gulp and slowly close the door, leaning against the door now. The muffled voice of him still seeps through the door though.

"I want to be your decalcomania
I want you.
I want to be your decalcomania
I want...
I want you. "

Oh Jungkook....I wish I had more control of this game- I wish I knew I wouldn't get to get out of this game myself.

Blankly staring at the wall opposite to his door, with chills and goosebumps all over my body. His words somehow knocked the air out of my lungs. Struggling to breathe normally, I stand up properly and start walking away towards the window again to get away.

Well, that wasn't pleasant. Reaching the window, I look out with a thousand thoughts running through my mind.

It hurts. Hurts to see him hurt because of me. Had I- Had I not let myself slip, had I been more careful, had I controlled myself- maybe none of us would be in too deep.