Access Denied [J. JK FF : Completed✔]

64. Confuzzled

It's so calm.

And its so peaceful.

Until I hear some commotion outside. Its audible enough to make Jungkook wake up. He stirs awake and opens one eye and looks around before stopping at me.

"What are you doing here? Why are you in my bed!"

My eyes fly open hearing his accusatory tone.

"I- I-"

What do I even say to a question like that?

So I just stared at him, dumbfounded.

"I asked you something! What were you even thinking? Why are you in bed with me? Did you think I'd forgive you for playing with me? Get out of my room! I'm talking to you!"

It's not until he clicks his finger infront of my face when I snap out of my head. I feel my eyes, heavy with unreleased tears. As if they were prisoners banging on the cell door to get out, trying to break free from their prison.

I feel emotionally exhausted to be honest. He was drunk, its natural for him to forget. Its like this game doesn't end. Will it ever end? Would we ever escape it?

"I- I'm sorry- I'll leave-" I immediately stand up, embarrassed and humiliated. And as I start to move away from the bed, I feel him grab onto my hand.

Looking back at him in question, he only stares at me.

"If you're gonna ask why again, I don't have any answers myself-" before I can finish, I'm pulled onto the bed again- which makes me hiss and clutch my shoulder in pain. Ofcourse that bullet wound was still healing.

"Shit- I'm sorry I forgot!" Jungkook claims, while chuckling.

So all this is funny to you now, fair enough.

I get up again to leave but he holds my hand again while laughing.

"Wait- Wait! Don't go! Come back!"

I look at him with a confused face,"You just asked me to get out, make up your mind."

"I was joking! I wanted to see what happens, come here, sit down please." Jungkook says smiling.

"So....you remember last night?"

He nods and then scoots closer.

"So you love me? For real?" He grins like a child.

"No." I deadpan, mad at him because of his stupid joke.

"Awe, you're cute. But for real, you love me right? I'm scared yesterday was a dream now despite feeling like it actually happened. I mean you're here, and you have the ring on." He says while stroking the ring on my finger.

Sighing I make him look up at me and scoot closer to him as well.

"Yeah yeah, I love you. Actually love you." I admit.

"Are you sure?" He asks.

"You made me promise not to leave on your father's birthday, so I'm keeping that, till the last moment I can. I gave you my name man, what else do you want me to do to show that I love you?"

He sighs again, before brushing my hair out of my face with his fingertips.

"I've missed you, baby. I've missed being with you and holding onto you. I've missed your smile. Hating you or the slightest thought of you....pretending to love me for something material....it hurt. It hurt so much. Saying hurtful things to you was hard, I was questioning my existence to be honest."