Fires Collided

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It's about to be Christmas holiday and grandma said that things are still tense back at home.Me and Alex decided it's best if we stay here.Peter went to Paris to see his mother and Baron.I sent my presents and tomorrow we're going to spend time with Alex then go to sleep and next morning it'll all be about the gifts."Everybody is leaving."I sighed."I know.But at least your favorite sister is here."He rolled his eyes."You say that all the time and you know you have to be my favorite because I have no other sisters."He got me under his arm and we started walking around the school.We bumped into a couple people.Saw a couple teachers and after dinner we ended up at the tower.I sat and leaned my back to the wall.He sat on my lap like a giant baby and rested his head to my shoulder."Oh did you miss your baby times?"

"I'm just tired.All those homeworks.All those assignments.All those classes.It's been only a couple weeks but I feel exhausted.Like the life is being sucked out of me."I chuckled."Bow put yourself in my place and think about how hard it was for me when I was at your age and started here.I had no parent that supported me.Unlike me you do.You also have me.My grandparents too. I'm not even counting your grandparents.So just work hard on your school work and everything will fall into place."I paused for a while."You are pausing.Why are you pausing?"I tilted my head down to meet his eyes looking at me."I just realized I should listen to my own advice more."

"You give good advice.I don't know if you'd be allowed to but maybe you could be an advisor or a psychologist or a psychiatrist.You choose."I sighed."Everybody has an opinion in their mind about my future job.My grandparents thinks I should be a lawyer.Baron's whole family thinks I should be a transfiguration professor and you say I should be an advisor?God please not you too."He sighed."I'm sorry alright?I didn't mean it like that.You do you.But...dragon breeding might be suitable."I rolled my eyes."I wonder what Hector,Babette,Breton and Dalinda is doing now.Those four look fabulous.Blue,red,obviously purple and uniquely black.Just so...cool."

Following day went by quickly.Alex was with Cooper and I thought I could take some fresh air before I went to bed.Nit long after Ralph came too and surprisingly I wasn't shocked."I'll leave.I have no energy to deal with you."I sighed."Stay. I'm in no mood to be a pain in your ass."He sat at the other side of the tower."Uh...I'm not a murderer in case you forgot.Come over."He got closer."You are so...so confusing.You tell me that I am in fact hiding.You tell me that if I know you so well I can figure out why you let me keep the Flamekeeper.But... I don't have the answers you seek,love."

I turned my gaze from the view and brought them upon him."Yes you do.You just don't know that you do yet.""You tell me instead and make it make sense for the both of us."I rolled my eyes."Now where is the fun in that.But...I will answer the first question.The hiding thing."I took a deep breath and moved closer."You weren't hiding.Not physically.You are hiding from yourself.You are trying to create a Ralph exactly as your father wants you to be.Then there's the real you.The one who would rather sit around and don't be bothered instead of messing with people.But now? I'm not sure.Back then...this is what I meant."

We sat there in silence for a some time.It didn't hit me how late it was until I heard the bell ring for midnight."Wow.Today is not only Christmas but also my one year anniversary.But I think he forgot."I scoffed."He wanted this more than I did but sure.Why the fuck not?"Ralph started laughing."He's lucky you hadn't dumped him yet."I rolled my eyes."It's alright. I'm surprised I remember it.I forgot my own birthday.And...I think I forgot again.Bit I know it's in winter and it's close.But that's all I got."He chuckled.And I asked him something I never thought I would.And I did it with looking him in the eye.

"Do you mind if I hug you?"He definitely did not see that coming."It's probably going to get you in great trouble.Forget I asked."He shook his head and pulled my head into his neck and let me lean onto him.And I did.I hugged him.At that moment I just wanted to cry.I don't know why.I don't know what made me feel the way I did but I was in no shape to move or talk."Thank you.""Of course,love."Next thing I know I'm asleep.Very deep asleep.

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That guy is a total jerk.He wants her and the girl who doesn't even remembers her birthday remembers the anniversary and he doesn't?That's just full of shit. I felt like beating the shit out of him.I knew he wasn't good for him.But I know her.I knew she deserved better than him.While I was deep in thoughts of beating him I realized she fell asleep.I wanted to wake her up but I also wanted to stay that way.This is the most peace I have ever felt for a very long time.Being that black bunny helped me to be close to her even though I know I shouldn't do it.But I can't help it.I-I-I need her around.I bully her so I can talk to her.It annoys me when she leaves after saying she can't deal with me today.I act like I accidentally bumped into her just to get close to her and right now I couldn't be happier.More peaceful.And more glad that I didn't go back for Christmas.

And regardless of what happens she gets me a gift every year.First year it was the flamekeeper.Second year it was a jersey of a player that I liked.This year I have to wait and see in a couple hours.I picked her up while she was sleeping and took her to her room.I never realized how tight she was holding onto me until I tried to place her in her bed."You have to let go of me."I took her hand and it relaxed but this time she didn't let go of my hand.I don't know what I was thinking staying at her bedside that night.