Fires Collided

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I woke up with a huge door slam.I basically jumped at the spot."What the hell was that?"The sound is way too familiar.Oh...fuck!"I feel like I have been hit by a thousand bricks.Thoughts?"He looked up to look at me.Then we both looked at our hands and let go."I'm sorry.I tend to hold onto stuff or the person with me while I'm asleep."He got up and left.No words.No comment on how annoying I was and am.Weird. I got up and changed into something jolly.

I barged into Alex's bedroom.I was going to wake him up but he was not there.I looked everywhere and he was nowhere to be found.The only place I haven't checked is the boys bathroom.And...I'm not allowed in there.I knocked on the bathroom door."Alex!?Alex are you in there?!You better be or I'll lose my friggin mind and no one will like that!"I kept knocking but those knocks turned into banging but no answer.I was going to the headmaster's room to talk to him but I saw Alex walking out of an empty classroom.I ran and hugged him."You scared the shit out of me you little giant baby."

But instead he pushed me away."How could you do this to yourself?!To Peter since you don't care what happens to you?!How could you?!Answer me and I'll stop Rose!"I was confused.I just wanted to finally hug him in the morning.Take him in.Annoy him a little.But I don't know what's going on."Alex what are you talking about?"Then he started looking at exactly one point.No eye movements.No reaction.I turned around to find Ralph staring right back at him.I turned back at Alex."If you want to talk to me in private we can leave."He chuckled.

"I got the part why you didn't want his father be reported because you know damn well it'll effect him but going behind Peter's back?!He loves you and you go behind his back with him.That's not fair!"I sighed.Then I took a deep breath."I am really trying to understand you right now Alex but...I didn't go behind anyone's back.And if Peter really did love me then he would've been here for our first year anniversary which I happened to remember when I couldn't even remember the day I was born!So don't tell me he loves me!Not only that but I know he can't love me!He doesn't even know me!He doesn't know I am mentally unstable!He doesn't know I'm on medication because I am a wreck!He doesn't know that the only way for me to truly escape my parents was to get my grandparents to be my legal guardians!He doesn't know about Phoenix's threats against my life!He doesn't know me!He doesn't know that I got Baron to obliviate him and his family to forget that I am on medication!The fact that he won't love me after he learns is just one of my many heartbreaking thoughts!So forgive me Alex but I am trying my best here!"

"If you're keeping this many things from him you may as well add fucking Ralph behind his back on that list!The person who is the son of the man who's been trying to kill you ever since you stepped into his son's life!"I chuckled."Do you really think I would do that after the betrayal I received from other my whole life?!Huh,Alex?!Would I do it?!When I was in middle school in the mundane world all of my friends and my first boyfriend abandoned me when I came out to them.I thought they would have my back.Instrad they called me a freak,an abomination,a monster.The list goes on!My parents were and are homophobics.Not to mention that I got sorted into Dragondeth!Which ended up with me being completely disowned!"

I had to calm down.I took a deep breath and sighed very slowly to gain the control of my breathing."Look,Alex.I don't expect you to understand because I barely do.But...I didn't fuck Ralph behind Peter's back.I fell asleep on the tower.Ralph was there.He did a nice thing but I tend to hold onto my surroundings when I sleep.So he just sat on the floor.What he did was a nice thing.And I can't change what happened Alex. I'm sorry but this is the hard truth.I don't want to fight you.Be angry with me all you want.Push me away.Don't hug me.Don't call out to me.Hate me if you will.But I'm not going anywhere."I walked past him.I went the opposite way the Ralph was standing so I wouldn't have to talk to him or anything.This was torture enough.

I carried all of my gifts to my room.I stole chocolate tablets from the kitchen.I started unwrapping the gifts.I got four collors for the dragons.He's really into this shit.I got great jewleries and clothes from my friends and family.I really liked the gifts but it brought me no joy.Opening Alex's and Peter's gifts were crucial.Alex got me a book that I talked about for a couple times.Peter got me a necklace but I didn't wear it.He knows I will never take off the family heirloom.Yet he got it anyways.Then there it was...Ralph's gift.It was a box he definitelly didn't tie the bow.It was proper and the box was fully black.I opened it and there was a rose in it.Just one rose.Dark red.It seemed perfect.There was a note in it.I read it. It won't lose it's color like the others on your nightstand.

I had three roses in my nightstand.One for my family.One for myself.And one for my friends.And they all died because unlike Margie I forget to change theri waters for weeks.This whole rose things started with that dress my grandparents got me for the Christmas party.This year it was fun.Went with Peter but I don't know.It wasn'y enjoyable.

I placed the rose back in the box and the note with it.I put the box in my nightstand's drawer.Then I started at my hands and then my eyes shifted to the ring and the bracelet he has given me over the years.He's a really nice guy.I'm the only one who sees that unfortunately.His actions doesn't help either.