All About Us (LT One shot books)

Crash

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Laurent: You caught my feelings. I have never had a father in my life. I don't know what is the relationship between father and son. My mother was a father and mother of nine children. And I never had such a hug from her like that. I would like to be part of your family. I want to say that I'm proud of you. You are great guys.

Larry: my brother lied. We know our father, and he was not the best father in the world. Here is a moron. I so wanted to get one of these hugs! You are happy, you are truly happy, and I hope that I am a good father. Thank you.

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Larry hated these two guys. He was glad that all this happened at the end of filming, and shortly it was possible to hide from everyone, especially from the twin's too understanding gaze. They pulled too much out of this, they prepared throughout the recording in this emotional pain, cutting the strings of his restraint, one by one, but they both walked on his scissors. They told their story, but it looked so much like him. To hell, to hell, all these thoughts. Run to hide, take time until Laurent catches him at the top of the counter. He cannot. If Laurent catches him, he will lie with a rock, and they will all see ... no one should see. He should be on time while Laurent and Jean-Marc discuss something with others among other dancers. Melissa's tail followed him, he hardly noticed

But even being in his room did not bring proper comfort, everything inside was seething and twitching. Whatever he tried to start doing, all this led to thoughts about his past, childhood, and youth. Thinking about their family and ... that was too much. Everything that he did not want to admit for so long seemed to seek to catch up, striving for the complete emotional collapse of Larry. Even the usual brushing of teeth erased the memory of how Laurent, with eyes full of tears, burst into his bath and locked the door, settling on the floor in complete hysteria, and Larry did not even have time to ask what happened when his father's drunk cry broke out, and then, when my mother said something to him, but the bathroom door prevented me from understanding the words exactly. But she missed the sounds of blows of objects and the struggle below. And then the older brothers and sisters came.

Larry irritatedly spat in the sink and rinsed his mouth. He went to bed, but there was no sleep, like calm inside. Larry tossed it and turned around, especially sleeping Melissa, who was sleeping calmly. Thoughts spun in my head like the wheel of Fortune, at every stop the memory eagerly threw out one small memory that he wanted to destroy. And each of them beat with sharp knives right in the heart. He felt the pain from these memories so much that he shuddered every time he shot at his heart.

Larry sat on the bed and tapped the fist where his heart was beating, hoping to calm him. Sliding out of bed, he put on his sweatpants and sat on the sofa. The contemplation of a completely uninteresting wall also gave him nothing. Unlock phone; he went to Laurent's Facebook page, of course, online. Bloody owl

Larry felt so many emotions at the same time that he did not know which one to grab to somehow stabilize himself. He did not even realize how angry he was, he grabbed the black sweatshirt and put it on himself; grabbing the room key, he left. Putting her brother in the room was too fast. They even let him in there incredibly easily. This is provided that a few hours ago he ran away from him.

Larry was killing all this calm brother. So he easily found out about the absence of his father in his life. How calmly he walked around the room and went about his business. He packed his things in a suitcase, sorted out the latest purchases, checked the mail, played with the cat, and hung another funny joke on TV.

Finally, stopping walking on the number and stopping annoying Larry with this, he sat down next to him on the couch and just started watching TV.

It was as if they were pretending that they did not know why Larry had come. Laurent completely ignored the swollen nostrils, the noisy breathing, the twitching knee, and the constant twists of the twins' heads to check Laurent.

And this Larry pissed me off even more. He never knew how to start. He did not know how. And he missed the chance for Laurent to start when he ran away from him.

Making an effort himself, Larry moved his body closer to his brother and embarrassedly touched his brother's hand with his fingers, stroking a little, he went with his hand up to his shoulder and neck, clinging to her fingers. He felt the warmth of his skin, a beating pulse, and how long-awaited calm penetrates him. He watched, fascinated, as his fingers stroked his brother's neck and looked up at his face. Larry did not expect Laurent to look at him either. A warm knowing and understanding look as if he already knew what was happening with his twin. And Larry finally broke. He was thrown down a cliff and he grabbed his brother with both hands so as not to fall. He plunged deeper and deeper into his emotions, breaking with every comforting word of his brother. It was no consolation for the sake of consolation, but for the sake of stabilization to avoid a panic attack. It was all too deep and long in Larry. And now it was splashing out inarticulate words through sobs. He talked about everything that he kept inside himself and did not show it to anyone, not even his twin. And within himself, he experienced it again and again. Pain disappointment fears a loss of hope and regaining it. He was drowning and floating up. And the basis of everything was love and gratitude to Laurent.

It would all be worse if not for him. Laurent was the strongest man in his life, he was the one who helped him through so many bad emotions and problems pulling out over and over again and it doesn't matter now either in childhood or last year. If you clear all the husks of the people around them, then only two of them will remain. It was Laurent who was able to convince Larry that he would be a good father. That their life can be better than Larry can imagine. Laurent helped and supported him all the time and Larry tried to pay the same.

But these two, they seemed to be dancing his life, full of hatred and hopelessness. Denial and lack of faith in anything. The verge of falling and supporting each other. To spend so many years together, from time to time, resentment, tears and always find the way back. This is mainly due to Laurent, Larry was less accommodating in his emotions. But there was one case that made him completely change his attitude to his brother. They were not so widely known then, but with them was Eleni, who did everything possible so that this did not go beyond the limits of the hospital. Laurent left Larry so angry that he had an accident. I did not understand how. He just woke up in a hospital with Larry sleeping at his feet. And then, Larry seemed to be replaced. He rubbed and hugged him all the time, stroking and taking care, not wanting to let go without him. And all the exits to anywhere alone caused attacks of aggression and panic.

Now all this has failed, in this and this maelstrom of pain and hatred to himself, he needed to get his twin. It was so selfish of him from the side, but he no longer had the strength to keep it to himself. To be strong.

Larry clung to his brother's chest and cried, cried for all the years that he spent in his darkness without understanding the depths of emotions. He cried from the immeasurable love for Laurent and the disappointment of how much he sometimes offended him.

Laurent hugged him without breaking his arms, allowing himself to come to calm. To connected speech is the meaning of words.

For him, it was also hard and unbearable. Too much has been revealed in this performance. He was also in pain, but he managed to figure himself out, Larry was completely in the way of helping him, so now they had just that. Crash Pain. Adaptation Larry's got too much mixed up right now. For so many years, he had not recognized the existence of his father, and now ... Laurent was surprised.

How quiet this mess Larry lasted several hours. Laurent cried with his brother, but not so loudly and desperately. The pain of his brother also destroyed him. The moment Alex fell off the table and Alex picked him up gave him too much emotion. That was precisely the peak with which he fell. Collapsed and Larry picked him up. Each time he did not know what he was doing.

Now they seemed to be fifteen again and Laurent was going to leave Larry for the sake of his dream, Larry did not want to go with him. He was scared. He did not want to admit that his father intimidated him to hell, but Laurent knew. Larry was a coward.

And after so many years, Larry told me all about it. For the first time in their lives, Larry poured out all his feelings breaking and removing barriers. He just couldn't take it anymore.

For him alone was too much ...