𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬

i'm horrible with my words.
i could write you a book, but i
could never tell you how
much you mean to me.
i could hide behind shadows
and pass you quick notes
without ever letting you know
it was me.
i could watch you in the silence
forever.
brown hair gleaming in the
dimly lit room
and your tender blue eyes
reflecting every word I've ever
wanted to say to you.
i can't help but smile whenever i hear
that name of yours.
my hands get sweaty when you're near
and my heart skips thousands of
beats in such a way that I think I
might die.
but even if i did die,
i'd be happy to have you be my last
sight.
but you have no idea how i feel
because each time i try to tell you,
i lose all of my words and my mouth runs
dry with an untimely drought.
i wish i could let you know exactly
what i was feeling and how
badly I want to be with you every second
of every day.
i'm a wreck without you
and my life has never seemed so bright
as it does when you're in it.
and i want to beg you to stay and
i want to hold onto you despite all of
the heated climate over a
worldwide pandemic.
and i want to scream my love for you
from every rooftop in our small town.
i want all of that.
but i can never quite find my words.

written on: november 16th, 2020