If I'm Louder... Would You See Me?

Utterly Screwed

Sorry if I haven't posted lately, I've been kind of caught up with other things. Enjoy! ♥

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Niall's P.O.V

Kaitlyn entered the coffee shop, but she was different, somehow. Her whole aura was different, from the way she walked to the way her posture was. She sat down putting her feet up on the table and leaning back, relaxing with her hands behind her head. She seemed more masculine, more masculine than I had seen anybody. Kaitlyn grumbled before fiddling around with her shirt. She pulled quickly and her bra was in her hand. My eyes widened at her as she flung her underwear across the room.

"Kaitlyn! What the hell?" I asked, completely shell shocked. Did she seriously just throw her bra across a coffee shop? Kaitlyn turned her head to look behind her, then focused back on me.

"Kaitlyn isn't 'ere right now. The name's Buck. Nice to meet you pretty boy." Buck didn't bother offering his hand for me to shake, and I didn't mind very much. I still couldn't believe that Kaitlyn had alternate personalities, firstly Kat, and now Buck. How many more personalities could she have hiding in her mind?

"My name's Niall. I would say it was nice to meet you, but I don't want to lie." I said, taking a sip of my latte. Buck nodded and chuckled.

"Fair enough, you can't grip the concept of your girlfriend being multiple people." Buck shrugged, checking a curvy girl out as she walked past. This was going to take a lot of getting used to.

"Do you want to go home?" I offered, hoping that if I got Buck out of public, he might change back into Kaitlyn. Buck shook his head. Of course.

"Nah mate. I'm fine 'ere. Why? You need to be somewhere?" Buck asked, gripping the carrot cake in his hand and taking a giant bite out of it.

"No, I just thought you might want to head home." I lied, shrugging carelessly. Hopefully Buck couldn't tell when I was lying like Kaitlyn did. Buck smirked, the crumbs of carrot cake visible in his mouth.

"You're lying mate. Just so you know she 'as more personalities than just me and Kat, oh, and Kaitlyn Key. Try being in 'er mind when she's thinking dirty thoughts, Kat's mind I mean. It's 'orrible." Buck explained, downing water quickly. I rose my eyebrows, there's more of her personalities?! Oh dear god.

"Wait, so if you know what's going on in Kat's mind, do you know what's going on in Kaitlyn's mind?" I asked. Buck nods.

"Yup. Right now. Key is panicking, she's had some dirty thoughts about... Sorry, she's shouting at me. Atkins is thinking about Kellin. Not Junior, the other one. She thinks he'll dump her because of us. And by us I mean me and the other personalities." Buck explained. Poor Kaitlyn, she must be going through so much right now and to have other personalities placed on her shoulders.

"You're not bad Buck, if I could get over the fact you're sharing the body of the girl I love, then maybe I'd like you more." I admitted, it was true, Buck wasn't too bad of a person. He would take some getting used to though, just like the other personalities. Buck smirked.

"There's nothing that will make me like you more." Buck said, smiling Kaitlyn's toothy grin. It was weird knowing Buck and Kat, I mean Kat suited Kaitlyn's body well enough, because they were both girls, but Buck was a little bit odd.

"I think we should go back home, so the others can get to know you before you turn into one of the Kaitlyn's or Kat." I said. Buck shrugged.

"Don't see the harm in that."

Kaitlyn Atkins' P.O.V

"So you're saying, I have three other personalities?" I asked again, confirming whether what I had just heard was true or not. Kellin had stomped up to his room after meeting my manly personality that went by the name of Buck. Kellin still hadn't come down from his room yet, I'm not even sure if he knows that Kaitlyn's back, and Buck's gone for a little while.

"That's exactly what we're saying." Liam said, his voice understanding and caring.

This just wasn't making any sense, I could never have more than one personality, its impossible.

"But how? Its impossible! I never suffered from it before." I said, Liam shrugs.

"I'm sorry, I don't know why its happening, if I did, I would surely make it stop." Liam said, pulling me into a hug. I wrap my arms around him and bury my face in his neck.

"Thanks Liam, it means a lot." I told him.

"GROUP HUG!" Louis shouts at the top of his lungs, jumping on me and Liam, so we're all hugging.

I felt Louis' arms tighten and I let out a gasp of air.

"Louis, release. Please." I gasped, Louis giggled and began jumping on the couch with Kellin Jr, it was immature of him, but you couldn't really stop Louis William Tomlinson from being immature.

"So how are we gonna deal with this?" Zayn asked, flinching away from the two boys jumping on the couch.

I looked down at my hands, they were soft, but worn, all from playing the piano, guitar and looking after Kellin Jr. I entangled my fingers together, staring at the light lines on my wrist, they weren't there at this moment, but they had been, back when I was at school, and couldn't talk, I would get teased and it drove me to selfharm. The cuts were long gone now, but I couldn't help but think it would be helpful at this point in time.

I traced horizontal lines across my wrist with my index finger. A sharp breath was drawn and I looked up.

Kellin had entered the room, he was leaning against the door pane, he fists clenched, so was his jaw. His eyes were focused on my wrists, his blue eyes flickered to mine and held my gaze. I could see what he was remembering, back when I was 15.

The pain in his eyes made me looked away and back down at my wrists, I could still feel his angry gaze on me. I hated when he looked at me like that, it made me feel alone.

"Mista?" Kellin Jr asked, tugging on Kellin's closed fist.

"What's up little man?" Kellin asked, kneeling down to be level with Kellin Jr.

Kellin Jr's face went bright red from embarrassment.

"Do you wuv my mummy?" Kellin Jr asked, this made Kellin smirk and pinch Juniors cheek.

"I do. More than she could ever imagine."

I looked down at my feet, the blush casually creeping up my face.

"And you know why I love her?" Kellin asked, still talking to Kellin Jr, but sitting next to me, with my little boy next to him.

"Why?" Kellin Jr questioned. Kellin wrapped and arm around my waist and dragged me closer, placing a kiss on my neck.

"Because she's my mate." Kellin replied.

I smirked at the thought of being Kellin's mate. The thought of being anyone's mate was enchanting.

I turned to look into Kellin's eyes, and saw my reflection in them. His eyes flashed for a moment, and I could see some sort of movement, that wasn't mine.

"They're my thoughts, you look into my eyes and you see them. Concentrate hard enough, and you can hear them." Kellin explained, his voice seeming slightly dull.

"Kaitlyn isn't safe anymore, she needs to stay inside, and if it's compulsory she leaves the house, or wherever we're staying, either one of us needs to be with her." Liam explained, entering the room with a piece of paper. He laid it down on the coffee table and pointed to a certain spot on the paper.

"We need to keep changing places, this is the next place I suggest we should go. Christian won't look for Kaitlyn here. After we head to the places he won't think of, we head to the places he will, because he would've already looked there." Liam added.

Kellin tensed and shook his head.

"We should go to the places he wouldn't think of. If we go to the places Christian did think of, then it might be even more dangerous. He might have Bass waiting for us there." Kellin said. Liam sighed and ran a hand through his brown hair.

"I'll work on more places then, it should be done by tonight." Liam reported, gathering the map up in his hands.

"What if it's not done?" I asked, always thinking of the worse possible situation.

Liam's brown eyes locked onto mine.

"Then we are utterly screwed."