Lie For Me

t h i r t y - t w o

Chapter Thirty-two: M I N D

  I was losing my mind, and I think that was the only reason I had decided to open my eyes.

That, and the sound of constant beeping which was the reason for the loss of my mind.

" . . . ughhh make it stop. " I groaned as I reached over to turn my damned alarm clock.

Why the hell did I buy that thing?

"Sam, your up." The sound of a voice next to me caused me to come out of my stupor, and really look at my surroundings.

It was then that I remember what happened, and I groan in frustration.

What the hell is wrong with me?

How could I be so selfish, and put my mother through this again?

My thoughts were enough to cause tears to come to my eyes as I spotted my mother sitting in a chair by the window among several bouquets of red roses.

I suspected Axel was at fault for those, and my suspicion was only confirmed whenever my mother smiled. "Beautiful aren't they? Axel sure is sweet."

I nodded as years fell from my eyes, and I suppressed a sob. "How long have I been asleep?"

We both knew I hadn't been asleep, but neither of us were going to admit it out loud.

"Two weeks, but don't worry you'll be out of here soon." She sighed, and I played back on the hospital bed.

Two weeks . . .

"Where's Axel?" I asked as I rested my eyes a slowly but surely headache coming on.

"Right here." I looked at the door at the sound of his voice to see him coming through the room door closely followed by Tyler who wouldn't even look at me.

Axel looked slightly different, as if he had aged in two weeks. His hair was now sweeping across his forehead on n thick waves while he had grown a five o' clock shadow that looked really good with his sharp jawline.

"How are you feeling?" He asked attempting to smile, but it was clearly a sad one.

He was trying though . . .

"Better." It was the truth, but I didn't elaborate on just how much better, because on a scale from 1-10 my pain was now a 6.

"I missed you." He said with a genuine smile, and I returned it.

"I missed you too." I glanced towards my mother who was standing up heading towards the door.

"Where are you going?" I asked slightly panicking, and I noticed Tyler standing up with her.

"We're going to go get something to eat down in the cafeteria. We'll be back . . ." My mother explains with a smile as she looked between Axel and I, clearly attempting to give us a moment alone.

"You look a lot like your mother." Axel had said as he sat down in an empty chair beside my hospital bed, and I smiled at his words.

Most people say I favor my father more, but I guess he wouldn't know that, seeing as he has never seen my father or a picture of him.

"Yeah, I guess I do."

We sat in silence for a few minutes a foot from each other, but worlds apart. But I knew what was on his mind, and by the time he said it out loud I was fully prepared.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"There wasn't anything to tell you." I said truthfully as I looked down at my fingers, and I could feel his eyes studying my every movement as if I were some kind of foreign matter.