Mental Health Stories

Awake

I hate fighting.

Every second I'm awake and every second I'm sleeping, I'm fighting my head and my thoughts.

It never stops and it's exhausting.

I'm always awake.

My brain never seems to stop.

Sleeping doesn't feel like sleeping to me.

I don't understand how some people can sleep and just. . . wake up without dreaming anything.

When I close my eyes, it's just a continuation of the fight my non-dreaming self deals with.

I'm so tired of being awake.

I just want to sleep for once without being awake.

I wish my brain could shut down.

Please. . . 

Someone help me.

What's the point in sleeping when I'm never really asleep?

I just want to not be awake for once.

Make the nightmares stop.

I'll do anything if you can make them go away.

My head hurts. 

I'm so exhausted.

Let me feel safe with you.

Stay with me through the night.

I'd rather not sleep at all if I feel the same whether I'm sleeping or not.

The fighting is the hardest when I close my eyes.

But it's okay.

It's not. 

I'm falling apart.

I'm fine.

I'm not.

I'm reaching my breaking point.

I just hate being awake.

So much.