I feel blank.
Even if we are watching a movie together, I don't even pay attention to it.
"Do you want to go out?" I nooded while sitting up properly when Seok Woo asked that.
I bring Yuna together to hang out with Sf9 actually but I wasn't in mood.
They wanted to watch a movie and I just follow even though I don't feel like it.
We walked in silence around the mall, "Let's go there." He pointed at somewhere and I just follow him since he pulled me.
I finally snapped back to my sense when I feel something cold on my lips.
"Mogou. Even though I know it doesn't help much." He got me ice cream and I sighed while taking it.
I just eat without a word.
I felt like I'm walking death now.
I really feel so horrible that I don't want to do anything.
I don't want to think about anything but I can't.
Feeling a pull on my hand, I'm being secured in a pair of arms the next second.
I could smell the perfume scent I make for him.
Seok Woo hugged me tightly as his cheeks touches my neck, "I don't want to see you like this." My arms automatically wrapped around his waist as I leaned my head on his shoulder comfortably.
I can't help it.
I can't hide it either.
"I'm tired of crying," I honestly said, "I'm tired of screaming," I just don't find screaming comforting anymore.
"I just want to forget about everything." I muttered that at the end.
I want to forget how smart I am.
I want to forget how he drowned me before.
I want to forget all the bad things.
And how pathetic my life had been.
Closing my eyes, I muttered again, "I only want to remember happy things." He caresses my hair constantly, "But why is everything so hard for me?" I buried my face onto his neck.
Why a misfortune always come after my happiness?
I thought everything would finally be fine when I'm with Seok Woo but I just have to find out one ugly truth after another.
Like god, my life is dramatic enough but they are making it over dramatic now.
"It will be fine, hmm?" He muttered softly, "I will get through it with you." He pulled me closer as he hugged me as close as he could.
How to get better?
How to get better when she keep trying to be me so that I would talk to her?
How to get better when they are still disturbing me?
"Hae jo noona."
I woke up when I heard Jun's voice but found that someone is holding my hand.
I was tired and I can't focus on work so I just lay down on the sofa to sleep.
Looking at the head, I blinked slowly as I brushed his hair away to see his face.
"How long had he been here?" I wasn't even aware that Seok Woo came.
He literally just sit on the floor next to the sofa I'm laying down and even fall asleep too.
"More than an hour. Noona," I look up at Jun, "I think you should just talk to your twins. She's sitting at the lobby and not leaving no matter how hyung chase her out from the building."
