Was It... Just Me?

Eyes of the Ocean

Keo's POV

Harry and I head inside, and he hands me a shirt.

I quickly change in the bathroom and when I come out my parents are outside waiting.

Harry comes out of nowhere and hugs me

I don't wanna let go

but we both know, I have to

***

The rest of that December was actually amazing, I really made up for the terrible year

I would be lying if I said I didn't think about Harry almost everyday

But this time it was different

In quarantine when I thought about him

Everyday was different
I felt different towards the situation everyday
One day I missed him
The next I never wanted to see him again
One day I would be giggling as a recalled the past
The next I would be frustrated with myself and upset with him for ever letting anything happen

But, this time it was different
It was the same
I was not angry with myself or him
I was not infatuated with our situation either
I was just happy
I was at peace
It was strange

No matter how many times I thought about my confession it did not seem to get less crazy
But why was it crazy?
Why is it so crazy for us to say how we feel?

I knew though it had to be done
I knew in order to move forward
He needed to know
I did not expect him to reciprocate
Although, now that I think about it
I'm so very thankful
That he put himself out there
He allowed himself to be vulnerable and say how he feels

I think we both needed it
It did not make things easier
But we both knew we had to let each other be

Somehow
Confessing how we felt
Helped us to set each other free

I know when I go back to school for senior year

It won't be the same
Not like how it was at his house
Not like how it was at school before

It won't feel like we are pulling each other

It won't be as hard

I know we probably won't be as close
I know it will almost be like it never happened

Harry's POV

I think about her alot
Overtime it gets easier

I think about how brave she is
And how she put herself out there
Not knowing if I would reciprocate

I think about how
Beautiful she is

But then
I also now know

She did not confess so we could be in some relationship and run of to some wonder land together

I know because it's different
I don't question everything anymore
It's like we set each other free by letting ourselves be vulnerable

I still can not believe
I was able to
Never would I have thought
Things would become so simple so quickly
I'm thankful though
Without her doing it for
I would never have been able to

I knew
As much as we were the same deep down
We were different on the surface

I need to be who I am
And she needs to be who she is

We can't do that together

So as I see her on the first day of senior year
She walks past me

And she doesn't look at me

I wish she would
But I know what that would do
It would set us back
It kills me
But
I know it's for the best

A part of we feels like it will always wish
so badly we could come to school and
Be together
But,
In less than a year
We'll be off to university and
Then what
I think we're both just scared
Scared but realistic

After everything
I wouldn't change anything
I know
She knows

KEO'S POV

I'm at school and after not looking at Harry
Because I was afraid
It would set me back
That I could not take it
I know what those eyes could do to me
Drown me in oceans
Oceans of memories
Untamed emotions

I finally find it in me to look up
And meet his eyes
Already looking at me

Although I'm not drowning
I'm floating
Peacefully floating in this ocean
And ocean of emotions
Infinite Memories, and Priceless moments.

I forgot it was different now
Now when I look up at him

I smile at him from a distance
And he smiles back at me

I realize

All that matters
Is he knows
And I know...

We both know it wasn't just me

It wasn't just me