Was It... Just Me?

Benched players are still players

Emotions are a curious thing. Just when you think you've handled them, they slip through your fingers like sand.

It was September and Spring.

Sitting next to Harry was really starting to take its toll on me.

If it wasn't me forcing a conversation with Harry because I couldn't stand the silence, it was him talking to Gwen neglecting my existence and my sitting there like a sad lost puppy.

Then one day,

"Keo!" Peter said
"What?" Wondering why he was yelling
P:"Can you please pass your book"
K: "ohh yeah sorry"
P: "mmmmh"
K:" what" I asked confused as to why he was shacking his head at me
P:" who has you in wonderland?" He smirked
K: No one why?
P: well the class left for break and you are only packing up now
K: I was finishing off the work
P: mmmk, it's been a minute since we've spoken
K: yup
P: you've been avoiding me
I shook my head
P: don't lie Keo, we cool right?

K: (oh so you convince my Friend you like her then tell your friends you would go for a girl who is apparently better looking but, you have unfortunately to stick to your level?)
This I said in my head of course
"yeah we're cool"

I should have said all of that out loud although I've never been one for drama even when it's necessary, I just wanted to leave so I said were cool

The next day

P: Heyyyy
K: Hi
I said awkwardly
This guy has known me for so long and he still can't tell when I'm screaming go away in my head.

Peter sits next to me
K: what are you doing?,
I question him
P: oh well Harry is in EGD (engineering graphic design) so he's not coming to this lesson
K: ohh okay

I don't know what's worse sitting next to Harry while he ignores me or Peter while he doesnt leave me alone.

P: So how's life been?
K: fine
P: you know I see you?
K: see me what?
P: there's four of us in this row when Gwen and Harry are in their own would who do you think is on the other side feeling exactly the way you do

Ooof oh no
That hit
He's in and I didn't even see it

K: ohh yeah
I sigh defeated

P: I always thought I was alone until one day I look over and saw you staring at the wall
K: well congratulations, you're not alone
I smile sarcastically

P: you know I never got to thank you for saving me?

Harry: she saved you?

I look up surprised by the voice behind me.
As soon as I turn around I regret it
I'm trying to read Harry

As difficulty as his looks are to read  Never seen that one before
Wait I have on the bus when he seat was taken

Is that anger?
What no ways

Still me being me I naturally put on an apologetic face.

Harry: " bruh get out of my seat"
Peter: " Just sit in mine"
Harry: " naaa bruh come on"
Peter :" ahh hade (sorry)  just sit there"

I don't know what is happening or what to do
Harry is trying to push Peter of the chair.
As much as Harry has more muscle than Peter, Peter is taller so I doubt it will work.

Afrikaans teacher " Harry And Peter!! ... Will You  TAKE!! YOUR!! SEATS!!"

Peter :ma'am I'm in a seat it's this guy!
Harry:  ma'am said take YOUR seat not mine!
P: ahh dog come on just sit there
H: hai (no) bra move