Was It... Just Me?

The Loud Silence in Harry's Head

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I've never written a guys POV Before🙂
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Harry's POV

I think about
How it all started

I knew her
Before she knew I did
I watched her
And she knew it
She would feel it and look back at me
Briefly

I couldn't help it
She probably thought I was some psychopath
But
Honestly I didn't care
I would stare at her while time flew by
Trying to figure her out
She wasn't invisible
Yet she thought she was
She was too different to be invisible
And she didn't even know it

It's like she saw through my mask
The  facade everyone believed
Everyone except her
That's why she hated me
She knew it wasn't me
But how
She didn't even know me?

I remember sitting on the bleachers with her
Watching her face shift from an annoyed one with a fake smile to a real one

Because I was being real with her
How I would look at her and see she had a kind of innocence in her eyes,
I was afraid I would ruin that
That's why she looked away everytime we had eye contact
She saw me for me
She saw deeper than anyone else could see

She couldn't take it
But I had to admit I couldn't either
If she looked a second longer
I would be the first one to look away

At first I wasn't sure
That I actually like her
She just challenged me too much
Audrey on the other hand was no challenge at all, she accepts what's on the surface.

I feel, it's better that way
What's underneath is too complicated
Letting people in makes you vulnerable
When they leave that sh*t hurts.

The more I think about our situation
It doesn't become less complicated

I realized
I like Keo, when I got excited over a chocolate
It wasn't the chocolate
It was the fact it it was from her

My birthday isn't exactly my thing
It's just too much attention
Which I already get enough of everyday I don't need more

It showed she cared
And for some reason that meant a lot
Especially after I had been messing up the past few days with her
She still got me a gift
She sees me for me and she still cares
Wow

I know it's messed up
I like her
And we get close
But when I feel us getting too close
I push her away
I use Audrey and all the other attention I get to push her away
Yes I know it's messed up
Then when I feel her getting to far away
I allow myself to feel again and pull her back in
Why?
I couldn't tell you
I'm still tryna figure that part out

I noticed she does the same too
She just doesn't know it
It's like we're chasing after each other all the time.
Sometimes it's me
Sometimes it's her

I'll admit
A lot of it has been me running
I'm still trying to get to the bottom of why.

I think about her a lot though
I wonder if she knows

Do you think people are thinking about you when you're thinking about them?